I DIDN'T KILL MYSELF

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Thought of him makes me happy,
Thought of him makes me want him more,
Thought of him makes me love him to the core.
Why do I love this person even when he snore?
Maybe he loved me even when i was tore.
When my heart had closed its door,
He took it out for a walk to the shore.
When my mind was at war,
He came by , just for me , to restore.
Calms me when my soul roar.
How easily he does all this?
As if it's as easy as the clothes he wore.
Not a single thing he has I couldn't adore,
I don't think he is worth dying but worth living for.
Thought of him makes me happy,
Thought of him makes me want him more,
Thought of him makes me love him to the core.

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सुकून है जहां
नहीं रहना यहां , जहां रातें है तन्हा
मंजिले दिखती नहीं , ना जाने गुम है कहां
काटता है अंधेरा मुझे , चीख़ता मेरा दिल यहां
पकड़ लो हाथ मेरा , ले जाओ मुझे वहां
खुश रहू और सुकून है जहां।

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When someone close to you dies, A part of you also dies with them.

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It's not been normal since she has gone,
My normal includes her.

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*I AM AT A PLACE*
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I'm at a place ,
To breathe , here is no space
I feel I am freezing but with sweat
smiling but lips hold a regret
people are present
but to feel their presence
maybe I lost the essence
I laugh I cry I try to walk with grace
but to breathe , here is no space
sometimes I feel too much , sometimes nothing at all
sometimes I run , sometimes I fall
and sometimes I dont even have the energy to crawl
in the darkness of this place, I see no face
I'm alone in the race , involve no winning but chase
I feel a pain
I dont know in which part
is it my mind?
Or my heart?
I gave my all I got to give
I don't want to survive , I want to live
Craving for a life to embrace

BUT I'm at a place
To breathe , here is no space



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I AM AT A PLACE

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My winters are beautiful only because I have you to hold my cold hands to make
them warm.❤️

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I DON'T WANT TO BE PERFECT
I JUST WANT MYSELF ENOUGH TO BE LOVED

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And Here's a small piece for all my kudis.💜
Let the kudis be , what they want to be,
Makeup or without makeup the kudis have always got beauty,
Open the cage , give them the Key,
Let them wear what they want to
Be it top skirt or saree,
Let the kudis be care free ,
Let the kudis be what they want to be.💜

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