My friends frequently smile at me, whispering, 'You're not married or why are you not Married or You should Marry! And I often replied with; Wama Tasha Una Illah An Yasha, only Allah's will prevails. For I trust His perfect clock is ticking in my favor. Which is why constantly my heart sings Alhamdulillah upon my journey: for my self-awareness bloomed, self-awakening sparked and self-improvement shines. On and off the internet, I am growing stronger, so as adding value to my work and soul. My mission glows bright, Alhamdulillah, I am trying my possible best in serving Allah, honoring my parents, guiding my young ones, and uplifting my community. Masha Allah! Marriage? It’s coming when Allah says and wills, 'Now.' He’s shaping me for the woman I am praying for.

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My Dad, My Treasure

I have a loving dad
For he's with me whenever i'm sad
Like a mother nurturing her child

He supports me every time
For he always has my time
Like a working clock in its prime

He always tries to get me what I want
But so ready to taunt
Like a pilot studying his route

I don't care even if he's old
For he would forever be my precious gold
Like a statue of an Ancient Tomb

I love him very much
And I'm not just saying such
Like a kunfu master ready to give punch

He who loves me more than sweets
For he is so ready for my treats
Like a loyal knight always ready to greets

He's my loving dad
Who never wants to see me sad
Like my maternal granddad

I have made many mistakes and crimes
But he often forgives me after some time
Like a loyal lawyer always preventing me from going jail

I have given him a lot of pain
But he never returns them back to me
Like he's built and meant to resist pain

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I knowingly....turned my eyes away from what you have done and what you'll do mistakenly, because at the end we all element of mistakes, flaws and shortcomings both willingly and unwillingly. Which is why I built a graveyard, in other words; a cemetery. Where I graciously bury your flaws, mistakes and shortcomings; for only Almighty knows how you are coping and managing mines.

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The image of me you’ve painted in your thoughts isn’t my burden to carry. I am not the architect of your assumptions, nor the keeper of your crafted illusions. My truth shines beyond the shadows of your imagination. Release the version you’ve built and embrace the real me, flawed, authentic and free. For your mind’s creation is yours alone; my responsibility is to live my truth, unapologetically. In the final analysis; life is all about self assessment not a competition nor fear of missing out.

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As you grow older in life, you'll come to realize that love is a puzzle with both happy and sad pieces, but when put together, it forms a beautiful picture. It is like a garden that needs nurturing, care, and water to grow. Love is a song with ups and downs, but the melody stays with you forever. It's a journey with twists and turns, but the destination is worth the ride. So you see in the final analysis; love is a beautiful adventure that makes life richer and more meaningful.

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My Mother, My Inspiration

Oh my favorite and first lover
Oh you my darling mother

You alone carried the painful burden since before u deliver
Me, after months of hurtful screamer

Day and night you were my constant healer
Cuddling me here and there as my crying shoulder

And then you become my first teacher
You who taught me how to read, write, to be kind, to love and to be a romantic dear

Yet, you're often the first to call my attention whenever I am out of gear
Through being both soft and hard so that I don't become a fever

I disobey you yet you're still my top best supporter
I disobey you yet you're still giving me a listening ear

What a Merciful love from you my darling mother
May I live long to keep making you proud and happier.

May Almighty reward you,
with the best of Akhiraa, Aamin Yaa Qareebun Mujeeb

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MORAL ACCOUNTABILITY

Don't you think we should revisit our personality
In order for us to defeat our immortality?

Without that we can't save our community
Regardless of how hard or smart we try to rescue the society

For we are all so distracted by the social media abnormality
Scroll up and down, going through reels of immodesty

Always looking for the update of others penalty
Forgetting that we are also victims of this abnormality

Or maybe posting and viewing who and who like or comment on our conaty
All for the claims of mirage popularity

This is not ideal or ethical rather irrationality
And vulnerabilities that leads us to life brutality

How I wish we'll be using our brains the way we are so engaged with our smart mobility?

POEM

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Life is an endless journey of tribulations timely
Even though it's all being played in your mind daily

For just because something is wrong or not going well, that doesn't mean it will not pass eventually
For life is all about test and assessment individually

We ain't just paying attention attentively
For if we do, we wouldn't be complaining meaninglessly

Yes life is hard but look around you thoroughly
Are you truly in pain or are you not just being grateful?

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One of my favorite quotes states: When an overthinker finally says I love you, believe them. For their brain has listed every worry, every risk, every what if, plus they've played the breakup in their head 100 times but yet still pick you that isn't reckless love it's love that's been tested weighed and chosen on purpose. Always embrace and cherish them before it too late.

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I was once lost in a time of utter darkness without a compass and I prayed for peace to find me. Then you appeared. You're the answer to a prayer I didn't think would ever come true. I think of you SO much that I see you in everything, every scent, sunrise and every moment of quiet beauty. If there could be a word that passes my lips more than any other, please let it be your name. Because I've sung your name to the waves a thousand times. For the greatest blessing in my life isn't just love; but you.

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