There are moments when I feel pulled in two directions, caught between the need for stillness and the craving for immersion.
The world is overwhelming,
yet there's something magnetic about the chaos, something that calls me to experience
every sensation, every fragment of emotion.
But then, there's the quiet whisper of solitude,
a retreat where the noise fades, and I can simply breathe.
It's a dance, this tug-of-war between wanting to disappear and yearning to be all in, to feel the pulse of life in its most raw and unfiltered form.

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And sometimes, I want to leave everything behind me,
to slip away unnoticed, disconnect from the world, and erase every worry, every memory, as if nothing ever existed in this vast, chaotic world.
There’s a part of me that craves that kind of emptiness, a clean slate, a place where I can feel weightless, without the burdens that seem to cling to every thought and every step I take.
But then, there are other times when I want to feel everything around me with every part of my being, like I need to pull the world close and let every sensation, every experience, rush over me. I want to feel life in its most raw, unfiltered, overwhelming form—every joy, every sorrow, every moment of connection and solitude.

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And Lately,
I feel like I'm drifting through my own life,
unable to find a sense of direction.
Every day feels heavy,
like I'm carrying a weight that no one else can see.
I can see the world moving around me,
people chasing dreams, finding happiness,
but I’m just here, lost in my own mind,
caught in loops of overthinking and doubt.
I want to feel alive,
to connect with the world again,
to break free from this numbness
But it’s like there’s a wall between me and the life
I want to live, and I can’t find a way around it.
I just want to feel okay again.

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फिर दिल का दर्द किसी से बताया नहीं
यार, वो शक्श मुझ से कुछ इस तरह बिछड़ा
अपना बहुत लोगो को बोला हमने पर...
पर उसके बाद अपना किसी को बनाया नहीं।

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If I Can Love The Person That Much
Who Don't Love Me Back,
Imagine How Much I Can Love The
Person Who Also Love me!

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ये हर वक्त जो मुझे अपना बोलते हो,
क्या तुम कभी ये सबको बता पाओगे ?

तुम्हे खोने के बाद मै बिखर जाऊंगा,
क्या मेरी तरह तुम भी बिखर जाओगे ?
या फिर ढूंढते रहोगे मुझसा कोई
और फिर किसी और के हो जाओगे।

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At This Time I Am Sit On My Rooftop
While Sitting I Am Looking At The Moon
Thinking Of How Beautiful It Looks Tonight.
Just Like The Moon, You Are Beautiful Too.
And Yet So Far Away From Me,
But When You Came Into My Life
Everything Grew Brighter With Your Love,
Though There Are Miles Between Us,
The Thought Of You
Fills My Heart With Warmth And Peace
Just As The Moon’s Glow Fills The Sky.
Just As The Night Shines Under The Moonlight.
You May Be Distant, Bt
Your Presence Fills My World With Light.

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I don't Know
What Happened To Me Nowadays,
All The Time I Feel Sleepy, Feel Sad,
Depressed, And Lost In Overthinking.
Even I Can't Understanding
What's Going In My Life,
It's Like I'm Standing Still,
Watching Everything Move Around Me,
But I’m Unable To Keep Up Or Feel Connected.
I Want To Feel Normal, To Feel Like Myself Again,
But It Feels Like There’s a Heavy Fog In Mind,
Making It Hard To See a Way Forward.
I’m Not Sure Where To Turn,
But I Know I Can’t Keep Feeling Like This.

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And Now Going To Complete 3 Years
When She Left Me And Still
I Am Thinking Why She Left Me !
I Was Did Something Wrong To Her ?
Or I Was Not Unable To Give Her
The Love, Care, Importance And Value She Deserve,
I Always Thought What I Have Done To Her
That She Left Me,
Even She Didn't Tell Me Any Reasons,
Why She Don't Wanna Talk To Me Or
Why She Wanna Stay, With Me.
But It's Ok If She wasn't Want Us Together,
It's Doesn't Matter,
She Is With Me Or Someone Else
All I Want Her To Be Happy.

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"There is an ocean of tears hidden
behind my smile,
an unseen but deeply felt pain that
drowns my heart"

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