Tired??

I have no one to talk to -
It's suffocating -
What's with this cacophony?? -
It's driving me crazy -

I wanna cry my lungs out -
Why am I surrounded by this many people?? -
Do they think I'm a creep?? -

Am I sad ?? -
There should be a reason if I was sad -
The only reason I know is 'past' -

I feel nothing....I feel fucking empty -
I feel LONELY -
I am slaughtered by my own thoughts -

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Love was intoxicated -
With the toxicity of -
"You and I" - — % &

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And it was only after I found you -
I realised -
That -
"I have been waiting for you since eternity" -— % &

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Was it this bad.

I am a mess,
A pathetic piece of mess.
Do I deserve to breathe ??
Do I ??

I am pathetic,
A terrible kind of pathetic.
Do I deserve to love myself ??
Do I ??

I am terrible,
A coward type of terrible.
Does a coward deserve to live ??
Do I deserve to live ??

Do I ??

— % &

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Was It this bad !!

Nobody gets my voice -
Am I insane?? I don't think so - or - maybe I am insane -
I don't know why I am sad -
I don't know why I am angry -
All I know is that - this dark is devouring every ounce of me -

I am buried in the graveyard of depression -
Taking another breath is difficult -
I feel nothing - which is killing me -
I am devouring my own flesh -
I am fading -
Death tortures me to near death -
But doesn't let me die -

Empty, nothing,void,numb -
Those are the only feelings left inside of me -— % &

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Her.

I ache for her,in every breath I intake -
I ache for her, in every pace I take -

Even if I had the whole universe -
I'd still be wanting her -

Acrid truth -
She doesn't even know -
"If I exist" - — % &

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Don't be this mellow towards me,
I might fall for you.
And I will be wanting you to fall for me ,
Which I can sense, is not possible .— % &

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When I say, 'past haunts a little' -
Past haunts more than a little - — % &

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When I get myself back.

I feel so fresh - like a sprout - ready to grow-

No anxiety holds me back -
No trace of depression -
Now insomnia fears seeing me, working for myself -
And I don't know where my anorexia is -
Coz I am eating to my fullest -
Maybe I ate my anorexia as well!!!

And finally i am in love with me - 'The real me' -
— % &

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Are introverts aesthetic -
Or -
Is aesthetic an introvert -🌼✨— % &

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