Hate can lead to some dark decisions
The thing was though
I didn’t actually hate anyone
I hated what occurred
The feeling of complete utter lack of any control
The idea of not being in control
Can either be freeing
Or maddening
And to me
It was madness

-

Love erodes the damage left by hatred
Like waves washing away letters in the sand
It slowly dissolves my anger
Leaving me only a warm and fuller heart
For us to move forward with
And leave all pain
Behind me

-

I am the God of Internal Chaos

-

The best presents to give yourself this Christmas?

Look after your mental health

Take a break

Eat only what you want

Be kind to yourself

Just because it’s Christmas Day doesn’t mean you don’t matter. Do what you can and don’t worry what others think about it.

-

I think I have these problems to teach me something
I get too reliant on my physical strength, it’s taken away.
To learn there are other forms of strength
I always suffer when I allow too much hate into myself
My mind is the real power, not my body
I rely on my physical body too much for my source of strength
So when I’m injured
I will accept my body and how it is in that present moment and take the opportunity to focus on my mind and what it needs
Start small and build up
The basics are what foundations are built upon

-

A strong body will only get you so far
A strong mind will get you anywhere you want

-

To me the world is chaos
So I do my best to control what I can
But in fact I control nothing outside of myself
I can choose what I eat and when
I can choose how I act
I can choose what I do
I can choose how I treat myself
Out in the world though
You can’t control other people or what happens
And that frightens me
So next time you think to yourself I’m odd
Remember Ive experienced a world different to yours
And I act accordingly

-

There is darkness in me
But this does not define me
I know who I am

-

I am more powerful in the defence of those whom I love
Than I ever will be in defence of myself

-

Wandering the lonely path
With nothing but a glimmer of light
To guide me forward
To find myself in the form of a child
Cowering in a shadow
Hunted by hungry wolves
Appearing as past tormentors
Threatening me with a barrage of pain
I reason with beasts
Sheltering the image of my childhood
Only to shatter their teeth
With fearsome blows
For now
I have the courage
I did not possess long ago
The power
To fight back

-