The river flows from its source
into the ocean..

Just like that
my love for you flows from my heart
into your.

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It feels like I'm drowning,
It hurts everytime i breathe.
My whole body's floating in the air,
While every part of it bleeds.

There is sadness and grief,
But also a happiness that i'll finally leave.
I wait for my final painful breath
With which it will all end and I will be free.

Suddenly there is air, I'm crying,
Trying my best not to breathe.
It's like the devil doesn't wants me to die
neither does it wants me to live.

I'm filled with enough life,
Enough to stay alive a little longer,
Enough to feel the kill,
Enough to die again and again inside the water,
Where it hurts every time I breathe.

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Baby,

Let me take you back to the start,
Even beyond your earliest past.,

Where your heart was raw,
Your soul wild and young..,

All that heart ache gone.,

Where you laugh like a song and shine like the sun,
Oh baby When you were even more young..,

Every thought so pure,
You can call me your first.,

Where you fear nothing darling,
And only love for real.,

Where I can watch you smile,
Hold your hand under the sun,

Where we are so brave,
We get drowned in our love.,

Oh Baby,
How much i love you.
Let me take you back to the start.

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There is a wound on your leg
Nobody really cares for you,
Not even you.
When the misery starts to overtake
You try to run,
Your own people holding you back,
You're choking.
You will never know
What that dream meant,
Which kept recurring every night,
Making your head churn,
Waking you up in the middle of the night,
Bye.
you shifted to a bigger house,
Everyone is happy,
But it kills you,
The comfort of being suffocated, trapped.
The darkness kept you alive,
The sun light demands creation
That's not what you needed,
Depression is so soothing,
You keep thinking,
What, you don't.
Liberation is evil,
To the society, so to you.
Dark bowl of sweetness,
Now you miss your mom,
The longing is deep,
You almost feel her hands on your wound,
You've never hugged her,
Because that's not what you do,
But you wish.
It's too late now.
There's a wound on your leg,
Nobody really cares for you,
Not even you.

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If i say something
But mean it not
Would call me a liar?
Or are you lost? You'd ask?

If i stay silent always
And speak up the ocean on a random knot
Would you call me gabby?
Or are you an ambivert? You'd ask?

If i let you know my secrets
And ask you to talk not
Would you betray my promise?
Or would you grave it till the last?

If i demand parts of your soul
And start loving them a lot
Would you run away?
Or would you give our love a single chance?

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These supperless demons
Ravenous for my riant soul
Turning my solitude into isolation
They feed on my happiness
keeping my body alive
Only killing my soul

I write words darker than this night
Not a glimpse of the moon
Let alone the sun light
The flowers bow down
The rivers don't flow
Everything leaden
My own forest not mine anymore

Demons open to roam
I run, I run
A fight with myself
Where everyday I win
Everyday I lose

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I thought accepting the fact that you're gone forever would be the end of the story, but now my mind keeps wondering if I'll ever find anything as beautiful as you. I know I won't.

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For the dept of your eyes, I feel lost and I refuse to ever be found for your passionate soul is enough to keep me alive and your ruddy red lips to keep my blood warm and kicking.

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And baby when you hold my hand, I can feel our hearts beat in a perfect symphony.

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My lady writes, and i am always confused on whether her soul is more beautiful or her words.

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