my cry has been silent
for so long,
that my heart feared
when I finally found a place
to let my heart pour.

and that's when I realised
I've suppressed,
hide my pain,
muting myself for so long
that I forgot
what it sounds like
when I actually
let myself feel.

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there's a need to find those who fall in the
same circumstances
there's a want to surround myself with
flowers of the same stem
there's a desire to speak about things not
spoken
yet fears trumps the need
isolation trumps the want
and scarcity trumps desire

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Can't blame the victim of circumstances
Can't blame whose hands are tied
Can't blame the one's whose opportunities got snatched
Can't blame the one's who ended before they began
Can't blame them or him or her
Can't blame them or him or her
Then who is to blame?
Should I take the fall? Will it entail
Or shall I have to scarifice the conscious
once again?

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Art is a complicated thing. It's never what it seems, but what it hides within.

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tsundere steal your
heart only when you
admire one from
the third perspective.
knowing their heart
and their hot and cold
actions mean
tickles our fancy
like no other.
but a tsundere
in real life can
actually break you
more than you'd
want to admit.

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You're an illusion,
just as good as a
cigarette.
A drag is all
that requires,
for me to relax.
But once you leave
I'm back in the arms
of my demons.
One so relentless,
one so restless,
one that of smoke.

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sitting still
working outloud,
panic dancing
hopeless doom.
sprinting rain,
wailing lights,
how the hands
you hold them high.
waiting river,
walking shark,
the smile you give
blooms my doubt.
eyes twinkling,
blood racing,
searching brain
on the dock.

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standing at the door
warm and cold
hope of death
I dance a song
of desperation.
trying and finding
a valuable deal
cutting expenses
shy Bella
sings a book
of Tansys and Willows

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Trouble followed where ever he went
Lies followed where ever she fell
When the morning comes
I have to choose
You're still in my bed?
When will this end?
Why should I choose
When I can have both of them?

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swept in the waves of smokes
tears dripped down
I am the one I should love
epiphany happening in these dark clouds
screamed out the soul
happiness swirling in those eyes
I cried out
hoping for another day
of your smiles
I walk away
in these stray ashes of mine
leaving this world
so soon
I hoped to love myself once more.

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