Silent Yet Scary

The night is so still.
These winds give me a chill.
Sitting under the moon feeling it's warmth.
Sound of the rusty leaves take me into a deep thought.

Oh wait, I can hear someone's scream
Shh, come out of your dream, its your heart that bleeds.
Let it cry out untill you are asleep.

Ps: Another sleepless scary night.

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Feeling wierd..
This whole thing is messed up.
Plannings that I did to make him happy are now making him feel bad.
I don't want to hurt him but I am doin it.
I wasn't aware about this feeling of his.
He is not feeling good and I am feeling helpless to do anything.
Idk, I am a bit pissed!
Feeling bad about all my efforts and that feeling.
But whats making me feel worst is
His tensed and worried face!
When he loses control and unable to understand what is wrong or right!
I can't see you like this.
I just wanna hug u.
I am sorry.
If you dont like it, I won't do it.
I don't want to ruin this, baby
I don't want him to hate music,
I don't want him to hold any wierd feeling
That to all becoz of me.
My presence should make him smile everyday.
Where am I wrong?
Why is this happening?
Why I mess up things for him?
When all I want to love him and make him feel the best.
Just want to tell him that i love him so much.

I love you to infinity❤️

Feeling fucked up,
You are not here!
Agar paas me hoti tab 10 mins nhi deti, could have hugged you and calmed you down, sorry!
I always love you
8th Jan, 2022

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That night...

My thrashing heart feels like the wave kissing the sand,
sometimes gentle, often hard!
Your warm sweet concern swirls me in your charm.
I desire no more, just be in your arms.
And that night you told me your whole life,
you and I got too real, but it feels alright!
This feels like a miracle.
Thought it was impossible!

As we walked by the dim lit lanes in silence,
our hands held us tight, our hearts felt the essence.
From the soothing look of your little eyes
to that passionate kiss of your lips leaves me satisfied.
Well, I was dancing on cloud nine!

The sky turned bluish grey,
Raining hard.
Breeze felt like a blizzard.
Your arms wraps me around,
teasing my cheeks with feathery soft flirt.
But it was never like this,
where my body inhales you.
And quiver with bliss,
how do we get this far with every kiss?

Whether I am happy or sad
I feel something within me that makes me glad,
when I see all the love in your eyes.
And you know that I won't stop
Until I make you mine
So, if it's not you I wouldn't know,
what true love really means
the pleasure of romance,
the bliss, the craziness and sweet silly dance!
So, no matter what happens,
Baby, I love you and you are mine!

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Mooon And Star

Did you still remember that small twinkling dot that kept on moving around the moon? Sometime close, sometime far but always shines like a spark!!

Did you still remember the plan of creating some unforgettable memories under moonlight and admire the beauty of peaceful sky in dark?

Did you still remember that how we used to look at the moon and search for its star? Because we believe that the moon is always incomplete without a star!

Today the sky is dark with no moon and star to spark!!!

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YES!!!
Yes, I hate you and I cant hate anyone the way I hate you.
Yes, you never loved me, you just came had fun with no fucking feelings.
Yes, I will remember you no more, not even worst of you. You ruined my every first memory.
Yes, you ruined me emotional me!! My two precious years...!!!
Yes, when I hear my favourite song I want to scream!!!
Yes, you are worst mistake I ever committed, but I cant call you my enemy because I am not you, and we were never same!!!
Yes, you taught me not to love someone like mads.
Yes, for you I was only your "classmate with benefits" to whom you were attracted.
Yes, I hate you more than yesterday.
Yes, You never loved me and now I will never love you!!!!

--Birdiiee

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"I fail to say my feelings I have never done that before and when I cant express I act weird, I am sorry I know that hurts you but I cant change my nature" he said.
Changes make life beautiful. Even a smallest change will bring a smile on my face.Will you do that for me?? I promise to help you with this so that one day my baby caterpillar turn into a freely flying butterfly" she said.
Days and months passed by......
He started sharing everything about his family, friends and most importantly his feelings.She was happy to feel this change..
But as time passed..His changes were again hurting her.He was expressive but aggressive and violent.
"Please stop blaming me, it wasnt my fault alone..How can you use those words??You have changed from soft little bud to sharp thorns..You are hurting me.Please understand!! Stop!!" she said.
"I have not changed, look at yourself , your ego and attitude. You dont understand" he said.
And fights continues!!
"Changes are necessary but of what kind she forgot to tell him!!"

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Which Season Are You???

Shall I compare you to the blooming spring?
Your childish carefree heart with dancing daffodils.
Lazy and slothful, eating like a catterpilar on leaves.

Shall I compare you to the bright and annoying summers?
Your cheerful smile as you open your eyes is like a first ray of the barging sun.
Your moody head irritates like dusty loo on motionless path.

Shall I compare you to the monsoon rain?
Your positive vigour to the drops that slide down with full force.
Your unpredictable tears that sink all hearts like rain in the dark.

Shall I compare you to the autumn days?
Swirling, twirling, popping like yellow-red leaves flying round the sky.
Sleeping like a hibernating hedgehog in the garbage heap.

Shall I compare you to a winter night?
Soft and thick like the pretty snowflakes falling on the ground.
The muteness of your lips to the cold haunting night.
Wildness of your soul to those ferocious biting winds.

Life is unpredictable
It changes with seasons
And so is YOU!

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Is this you?

Ageless as the moon
Blithe as a butterfly
Cold as ice
Deaf as a post
Essential as dew
Frail as a lily
Gentle as sleep
Hot as pepper
Innocent as a lamb
Jealous as a child
Knowing as the stars
Loyal as a dove
Mysterious as an echo
Natural as life
Opposite as poles
Pure as faith
Quite as a stone
Rare as a blue rose
Soft as fur
Thin as wafer
Uncontrollable as the wave
Vigorous as fire
Warm as wool
Yellow as a chick
Zigzag as lightning,

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"and think of me ,when you're alone,
alone from the crowd which you want to be,
think of me, when you have no one to lie to,
when you take off that mask and
look yourself in the mirror,
feel me when you are deviated from your path,
think of me ,when in a cold night,
You look at the stars and wish to be loved..."
Suddenly, her voice was lost into eternity,in that silent graveyard where he was sitting lonely!!!!!!!!

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You
You r in d sun,the wind,the rain,
In the air I breathe and with every breath I take.
When you sing a song,there's no more pain,no more fear.
Ur arms are strong enough to protect me.
U r so strong in my mind and soul that I lose all my control
You make me laugh,when I want to cry.
When I am wid u time flies.
I need u more den u believe,love u more den u can conceive.
You r a reason I melt inside and break
When ur heart is sick n u fail to express frustated with ur mood swings.
But I am there by your side to give u ur wings.
I love...
The way u laugh,u care,u comfort,u love me.
The way u wiped my tears n controlled my frustration n anger
The way u walk beside me and wanting me at ur side and I played with u
The way we smiled looking into each others eyes
Your words,ur eyes,ur sweetness,ur confidence.
Our precious time together
The kisses and touches which move a current in my soul.
You knw all my untold emotions
U mean the world to me.
Nothing will ever come btw us
Lastly,from the moulding of two bodies.
The indulging of two souls.
Love between the two of us.
Keeps us from growing old
I will love you forever
But quite less then tomorrow n more den yesterday.Be always with me..

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