There are days when I cry for a reason
And days when I smile for no reason
I see a girl in my reflection I don't recognize
Everyday she looks different but more wise
I cling to people I believe would save me
Entraped myself awaiting to be set free
I wish for a day when I read this again
And love this girl who has outgrown her pain— % &

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I fell like autumn leaves
Withering and deceasing
And you were a bud
Awaiting for the spring
We didn't belong together
Had our own seasons
As I decayed gradually
I felt warm inside
I won't see you bloom
While dissolving in the ground
I can see the happiness and
colors you'll bring along

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A girl lost in a jungle seeked shelter in caves.
She met a man-eating tiger and befriended him.
She knew all along that she'd be eaten one day but for time being she didn't want to be alone.
The tiger ate her eventually.
We let toxic people in our lives out of loneliness only to be broken mercilessly in the end.

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Everyday I would wait
To see that vibrant smile
I would peep from across
It would last awhile
I could only chase
Strive to become you
To be a soul unfettered
To find happiness past due
The more I discern
The more I perceive
How well you act
How amazingly you deceive
Your ecstasy was a hoax
Deep inside you suffered
Those eyes were sad
To me it never really occured
Still I chase you
You're clever and strong
It would've been better
If we together walked along

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People leave, leaving us empty,
The void grows in pain.
We search love and empathy,
Barren seeking the rain.
We again are ensnared,
By someone we don't know.
We're happy and scared,
Don't want them to go.
We love and care,
Deception we always choose.
We fear the despair,
And that's why we lose.

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Some nights are peaceful, I forget I'm in agony,
I count the stars, I count on you,
You're as far as the stars are,
Makes me wonder if I'm all alone,
Only if you were a loyal friend as the darkness was,
To stick around even in daylight,
But the extremities are destructible,
And you chose to be just good enough.

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Could I ask for more ?
I was handed the world
What should I do ?
My chores were summoned
Where can I go?
Places are unfamiliar
Who should I find ?
They all look similar
How would I know ?
If destination is right,
Maybe I don't know,
Life is a cursed delight.

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"A boat left out in storm."
That is a persistent feeling.
Isolated; in the middle of nowhere.
Overflowed by thoughts.
Heaviness sinks me deeper.
Winds shatter the framework.
A part of me wrecks,
Frail; but still floats.
And that is how
We exist and survive.

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DREAMS
I lived in dreams all along
Where I was really fine
Happy, safe and brave
Where I sang and danced
And fought the demons within
Where I flew and swimmed
Dissolved in the rain
Bloomed from a bud
Scars faded and wounds healed
Nights of sound sleep
Reality is an illusion indeed
Where I never really existed
Dreams make me alive
And would be real someday...

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A wounded dragon with clipped wings,
Would breathe fire, faltering & blazing.
Presumptuous vultures encircled to overtake the sky,
Held back, waiting for it to die.
Dragon would never let consume it sacred facets,
Too obstinate to be eaten by maggots.
With a will to survive, fire it splashes,
Burning to ground, turning them in ashes.
Neither did it give up nor it pleaded,
Believing oneself is all it's needed.

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