Dear Love,

I know I messed up.
I shut you out
when all you wanted
was for me to hear you really hear you.

I called it nagging,
but it was love.
You were loving me out loud,
and I didn’t listen.

You’ve forgiven me,
and I’m thankful but I still feel the space between us,
like something warm that used to be there but hasn’t quite returned.

I miss you.
I miss the way you get mad at me
when I mess up, because that fire meant you cared.

I miss the softness that followed,
the way your laugh fits so perfectly with mine,
the way you looked at me like I was home.

I don’t want just forgiveness I want to be better.
I want to meet you where you are,
and hold what we have
with both hands this time.

If there’s still a road
back to the version of us
that laughs louder, loves deeper,
and listens more I’ll walk it.
Every step.
With you.

Because I believe in us.
And I still hope you do too.

-

"Evil Mind: Unread Reality "
In life's dark shadows, I once did dwell,
Til your light pierced through, a saving spell.
By my side, you stood, a beacon bright,
But now, foes conspire, to steal you from my sight.

I dream of days, side by side we'd stay,
Yet now, you push me, further away.
Into the abyss, I now descend,
Losing you, my light, my friend.

If not in death, after losing you,
Evil will rise, their misdeeds to undo.
Suffer they shall, in eternal pain,
For all they've taken, a bitter gain.

No death will I bring, but endless woe,
To all who dared steal, what I hold so.
Their joy I'll strip, their hearts I'll break,
A life of torment, for every stake.

Never will they find, a moment's peace,
As I take from them, piece by piece.
Their families too, will share the fate,
Of endless agony, a bitter weight.

So let them know, the price they pay,
For crossing me, and taking you away.
A saga of sorrow, their souls shall know,
For stealing my light, my love, my show

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In my fleeting presence, I may not endure,
Yet, what I've shown will remain pure.
All I offer, in time, will cease to be,
But your happiness, in the end, is my legacy.

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My Confession

In the tempest of my anger, words flew,
Harsh and cutting, aimed at you.
But deep within, a fear did brew,
Of losing you, my heart's true glue.

From the start, our path seemed askew,
Troubles abound, nothing seemed due.
Frustration and tension, our spirits grew,
Lost and confused, not a clear view.

I regret my actions, my words untrue,
In that moment, my anger overthrew.
Yet, you know me, my love, it's not my hue,
To hurt you so, my heart feels blue.

I accept fault, my apology overdue,
For pushing you away, this I rue.
But please, my love, this I pursue,
I can't bear to lose you, that much is true.

Please, stay by my side, don't bid adieu,
In your love, my strength, I renew.
Together, we'll mend, our love anew,
For I need you, my love, like the morning dew.

-

Feeling a little more empty,
So much has happened, you're not here to see.
Singing this song in the darkness,
Slowly consumed, feeling lifeless.

You're right, I'm not right,
Just numb, no strength to fight.
Lacking certain intelligence,
I'm just an empty hole, no pretense.

Memories haunting, shadows tall,
Lost without you, against the wall.
Echoes of your voice, fading away,
In the silence, I'm here to stay.

You're right, I'm not right,
Just numb, no strength to fight.
Lacking certain intelligence,
I'm just an empty hole, no pretense.

Trying to find my way,
In this world so gray.
But without you near,
I'm lost, drowning in fear.

You're right, I'm not right,
Just numb, no strength to fight.
Lacking certain intelligence,
I'm just an empty hole, no pretense.

Feeling a little more empty,
So much has happened, you're not here to see.
Singing this song in the darkness,
Slowly consumed, feeling lifeless once again.

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In the chaos of choice, I lose my name, Forgotten, adrift in a sea of blame. No place to call home, no path to follow, Lost in the void, in the shadows I wallow. Yet in this emptiness, a truth is clear, I belong to nowhere, yet everywhere.

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In the shadow's grasp, whispers of the night,
Words twist and turn, lost in the fading light.
Familiar paths now obscured, unfamiliar grounds,
In darkness, we wander, in silence, we're bound.
Yet in this unknown, new stories are found.
But in those new found stories my name is nowhere to be found.

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Embracing the New Year with a reflection on sacrifice. Sometimes, the toughest sacrifices pave the way for greater good, despite the initial pain they bring. Let's honor the strength within us to make sacrifices that propel us towards brighter tomorrows. Here's to a year of meaningful choices and transformative growth!

Happy New Year to everyone everywhere...!

-

In shadows, I once wandered, a stranger unseen,
Lost in the darkness, where I once had been.
Emerging into light, I found a new place,
Yet within, chaos lingered, an unmasked face.

The brilliance blinded, the chaos unseen,
Days passed in fear, the darkness between.
The mischievous light brought moments of cheer,
But within, the void whispered, I held dear.

Unexpectedly, the light sought to steal,
Memories of joy, leaving scars that feel.
Why am I here? Does my worth stand clear?
In this charade of pretense, doubt and fear.

Should I return to the darkest of nights,
Embraced by chaos, where truth takes flight?
A smile, not of joy, but truth's embrace,
Realizing the lie in this masked space.

Yet redemption lingers in shadows deep,
In embracing truth, a resolve to keep.
For amidst the chaos and blinding light's art,
Lies the strength to mend the broken heart.

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In shadows cast, where light recedes,
I feel the weight of despair's decrees,
As hues of life turn dull and gray,
My soul, once vibrant, fades away.

Oh, love, I sense your silent plight,
As darkness claims my dwindling light,
Yet, in your eyes, a flicker still,
A glimmer of hope against my will.

Let me surrender to the abyss untamed,
Lose myself, my essence unnamed,
For your happiness, my fervent plea,
May it bloom amidst my soul's decree.

May the final chapter grant you peace,
As my fragmented self finds release,
Though I may perish, a faded ember,
May your heart, beloved, remember.

In memories held, where love remains,
Amidst the echoes of forgotten strains,
Find solace in the light we shared,
For in your happiness, I'll be repaired.

So, let me lose all that I've become,
In the twilight's embrace, my essence undone,
But may your heart, forever free,
Find solace, love, and endless glee.

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