The dark clouds are back to their troll above me.....
I know it's been a while but I can't get over it.....
The knife's edge looks with such pleasing eyes....
Why can't I feel safe anymore even when someone tries.....
The gaze over me always sends shivering commands to my body....
Why the gateway of hell seems prettier than faith in anybody.....
Why do I always want to run away from people caring....
Why can't I stand being happy and being able to sharing.....
My hands shiver everytime I try to write my story....
But why... Why it never shivers on the thought of death without glory.....

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Woh palke jhuki jo kbhi shrma ke,
Aaj aansu chhipane ko bnd hojti hy....
Woh jo hassi kbhi Dil se niklti thi,
Aaj gamo ko chhipane ko muskan bnjti hy...
Woh jo kbhi raat bhr yaado me khoya rehta tha dil,
Aaj unhi yaado ko bhulane ke liye khudko bhtkake rkhta hy....
Woh jo befikrr hoke kehh jte the baate sbhi,
Aaj unhi nzro pe jhutha parda lgake rkhta hy.....

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Kadam bhatke hue lagte hai......
Apna hi rasta dhunla sa lgne lga hai....
Jbse logo se door hone lgi,
Koi dusra insan mujhme jyse bsne lga hai.....

Jo aankho pe parat thi khwabo ki,
Woh jlke raakh hone wli hai.....
Khwabo me lipti khwahishe bhi,
Uss aag me jlke khaakh hone wli hai....

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Tell me.....
Tell me when did you cry the last time,
I wanna know when I failed to give you comfort.....
Tell me when did you feel lost the last time,
I wanna know when I couldn't brighten up your path.....

Show me.......
Show me all the injuries you've got,
I wanna soothe all those marks on your mind....
Show me all your flaws you hide,
I wanna kiss them nd make you mine....

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I'll be sitting on the horizon of my feelings.....
Watching it shrink with every attachment.......
Preparing to sink in the lake of loneliness.....
Fighting against my own wills of happiness......
Leting every single bait of hope turned into ashes....
Burying my emotions far away in a coffin....
Turning my city of dreams into a haunted cemetery.....
Writing my life's story to a tragedy of thoughts......

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Why to find love??
When love fills the air everytime I'm with my friends.....

Why to cry for love??
When with every tear of mine comes a tear out of my friends....

Why to fear if I'll ever find love??
When love never leaves my path since my path is always filled with friends....

Why to let yourself feel small in love??
When you are the best and sweetest person in the eyes of your friends....

Relationships will form and break people will come and go, life will keep getting better or worse... If we like to escape to the happy moments so much, why do we allow the bad people to be the reason of our tears........
It's ohk to cry sometimes but coming back stronger is even more important... And I need not to worry 'cause I've the best people with me....

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Am I back to my dark side?
Where there's no silver lining on the clouds....
Where only fears are on my side,
Everything else's hopes in me is in doubts......

Have I returned to the palace of pain?
That resides in the dark places up above.
Where even intelligence loses it's sane,
And even love loses the hope of love....

Am I back to my sad place?
Where I breathe but I'm far from living...
Where it's a crime to have a smile on face,
And in the pay price, peaces of my soul I've been giving.....

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I saw once a dream,
Beautiful as heaven.....
I'm seeing now the reality,
Sad as hell....
Nd even though it's clear,
Nd my eyes aren't blurr......
Still I can't picture out
That this is the reality.....
My worst nightmares feel better...
Than this reality...
Nd still I'm forced to accept it as it is.....

Razaa nhi thi meri jo hua,
Par phir bhi jo bhi hua meri razaa se hua.......

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Kaisi dastake dil ko behlane lgi hai,
Aajkl beparwahi meri deewangi kehlane lgi hai....

Mera safar kisi musafir me kho gaya hai,
Aur kambakht ye rasta bhi madhosh sa ho gya hai.....

Sang sang mere fijaaye behekne lgti hai,
Thhame jo woh hath mera ye hawaye mehekne lgti hai.....

Pr yha drr bhi toh mere dil me rehta hai,
'Koi musafir rukta nhi' hrr modd zindgi ka mujhse ye khta hai....

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I always believed, we are soulmates..
And the destiny has did it so....
Our meeting was meant to be,
Our existence codependent, it's just we didn't know.....

And now, as if the world's laughing on me,
Destiny's giving me twisted smiles....
We were together and then in a moment,
I can't even find you in thousand miles...

And my hopes shattered,
Since I thought we were meant to be....
It seemed we were perfect together,
And there's no one else for me....

And then with a little bitterness,
My heart realized it heavily.....
Yes, we were indeed soulmates,
BUT
We were never each other's destiny....

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