"tell me the man of your dreams"

yes,he must be soft yet know
how to withstand the storm like me.
he must be a garden
growing hope like a flower
where I will bloom my love happily.
he must be mine
even if we are miles apart
and I should talk to him
in silence,in tears,in emotions
where I feel like losing my sanity.
he must be insane because
loving me even in my dreams mean
he is interested to welcome trouble!

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Calling and calls
all I tell him,
please stay
please love me
I can never let you go

I supress my tears
so that I can speak to him
that,
please stay
please love me
I can never let you go

"you are immature,
this is why I can't be with you"

I am silent but I struggle
and you cut the call off.

You know,
there will be a day
when I will lose you
and I promise,
if I ever reach there after this pain
I will never come back to you
I will never come back to you.

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Calling and calls
all I tell him,
please stay
please love me
I can never let you go

I supress my tears
so that I can speak to him
that,
please stay
please love me
I can never let you go

"you are immature,
this is why I can't be with you"

I am silent but I struggle
and you cut the call off.

You know,
there will be a day
when I will lose you
and I promise,
if I ever reach there after this pain
I will never come back to you
I will never come back to you.

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Calling and calls
all I tell him,
please stay
please love me
I can never let you go

I supress my tears
so that I can speak to him
that,
please stay
please love me
I can never let you go

"you are immature,
this is why I can't be with you"

I am silent but I struggle
and you cut the call off.

You know,
there will be a day
when I will lose you
and I promise,
if I ever reach there after this pain
I will never come back to you
I will never come back to you.

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empty

what you want to do?

go for a relationship
so that we can play love
and break up suddenly
when you are bored of me?

go for a friends with benefits deal
so that lust in our bodies
silence the deepest fight
for responsible love
that happens when stars
are loyal enough to stay
under the bright daylight.

you say,
love is a part of life
and I will be over it
if we don't lie down
and satisfy regularly
and I smile in silence.

I have words but I don't know
how to speak up infront of you anymore
just like I don't have words
for falling in love
and feeling empty in myself right now.

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you say,
"don't fall in love with me"
i really tried but i failed....
you are the mountain
i am ambitious to climb
you are mine in a dream
and when I wake up,
i feel tired.

i know,you will never love me
but for once,can we meet in real life?

i am in search of moving on
but there's no one soft as you in my heart,
all I feel to do is
to come back to tell you in silence,
I love you!

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why I need to do sex

He says,
yes I will satisfy you
and I think,
is this because of love
or is it because
I am trying to lie hard
to feel a man's presence
over my body
to try to search love
in midst of invisible chaos
within my body
that asks repeatedly
to forget the past,
to just sit with the belief
he treating you like a flesh
is not every man
who manipulate you
to sexually abuse you heartlessly.

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chalo tumse hi wada raha

mohabbat zindagi bhar karne ka

tumse nahi, khud se

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Chand taarein chune ki
baatein kitni karte ho
bas mujhe idhar
tumhare inteezar ke baad bhi
chune nahi aaye.

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how beautiful it would be
if this story wouldn't search
for a prince charming
but self-love pretty enough
to teach how I can be on my own simply.

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