REMEMBER
I know it is absurd to recall
the past right now
But do you remember
about our magic show?
Was it only me who felt that
the time was running slow?
I hope you remember
how much love you owe.

REALIZE
The very first moment I thought
you would be an ordinary girl
But the very next moment
I realized I was in love with a pearl,
I hope you realize why I
dragged you out of the crowd
Being shy is another case,
but I was trying very hard to say it aloud.

REGRET
I hugged you while trying
to make you feel comfortable
Now I regret for not hugging you enough
until I would have felt comfortable,
I saw you struggling
with your hair for a while
I regret for not brushing them
with my figures, even when
I embrace every feature of you for a lifetime.

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One day, when I'll be dead
You will read my thoughts
I wonder if you would
still understand my words
or call my screams a hoax.

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Why I don't say "I love you"?
May be the reason is love
Or because I am pessimistic
And I am being selfish,
People bound feelings with words
Words used for toast,
They feel loved when expressed
Are these thoughts even sophisticated?
Love should feel like lost
Like a traveler with no destination
And no forever expectations,
The reality should be a fairy tale
A fairy tale of temptation
Temptation with higher acceleration,
How can I confront my love
When you stare with your midnight dove,
I feel cold to say I love you too
But I feel lust like a summer loo
Your fragrance is like smoke
And I get lost with so much hope,
Babe how can I say "I love you"
When love is not all what I feel for you.

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There was a time when
I eagerly waited for the night
I would sit and plan
how to celebrate each night,
Back then I believed
nights and silence were a blessing
The 8yo thought the night
as a beautiful wedding.

Now I am 22 yo
and every night I am
dragged to a deathbed,
I hear whispers and screams
from the past
and I don't know
how to stop those hands
pulling me into the earth,
The quieter it gets
the harder they scream
I don't know if I'll survive or
die everyday with this bad dream.

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Could you read
me a bedtime story?

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People call it quarantine,
Writers call it OUR TIME.

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No relationship is effortless,
Relationship is like a cake,
You have to put a whole
lot of time and energy
To make it taste effortless.

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TRUST
Trust is belief, belief of faith, a faith of unheard and unseen religion. We all believe that trust is a jar made of glass, once broken it is impossible to mend it to its original form. When do we trust somebody? Is it when you feel that the individual is no risk to your existence? Is it when you relax and rely on them? For me trust is someone's truthfulness, trust is assumption of holiness in any relationship. Sometimes trust is a heaviness in someone's life and for some a gateway for a new friendship. In between two individuals there is trust; positive and negative, either the person will build me or the person will destroy me. Trust is what we want to belief in, trust is a marksheet without an examination.
TRUST IS YOU. TRUST YOURSELF.

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I know I am a bad writer
I don't know anything about writing
I am not even a writer
I don't know how to give you chill
I am just a lonely human being
Who just writes some random shits she feels
I know you don't care about my feelings
But here I stand every night to ask you for a gift
Gift of time and attention
And I understand why you don't want to give
But if you ever feel like a nobody
just remember someone is still standing here to hold you like you never did.

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Ye jo teri jhulfe ghani hai
Meri Jaan usme basi hai

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