For the first time in my life,
I am, Blank as a parchment.
I am inconsolable,
My heart has willingly lost an argument.
I fear the most gruesome fears of all.
Of reliving it all, one more time; all over again.
The scrutiny of all this, is far too much to bear.
All these feelings are much too non-verbal to share.
I seem to have lost sense of this world and it's time,
As freeing as it was, now I feel locked up in my mind.
My heart keeps pounding, everyday it loves you more.
It keeps forgetting, that there's a lock on that door.
And yet it keeps knocking, loud and clear.
Confidently knowing, exactly what it wants!
My heart is in love and mind at denial!
I have once again been put, as a failure to the trial.
No matter how hard I love, it drowns to the bottom!
It blooms a little, but it's ends up being rotten.
The only way I love, is hard and yet I fail!
The mast of it is broken, and yet it has set to sail!
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