Walls have ears,
But, I'd like them so.
Throw those clothes away
And walk closer
I need those broad chest, big hands and mineral-blue eyes
To devour
Let your deep voice resonate tonight
I'll take charge

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~ Story of a fat girl ~

Bubbly, chubby, awwww cute - until 12
Huh! You should lose weight - post 12
Puberty? Irregular periods? Thyroid? - the questions
Go to the gym, do yoga, just walk for an hour - the advice
Lemon and hot water, cinnamon in honey - the home remedies
Hot bags, cellulite creams, fat burning pills - the courses
Full hand tops, skirts below the knees, anarkali suits, pinned dupattas - the dress code
You're a nice friend, friendly, but nothing beyond that, ok? - the rejection
Photos? Hide behind and show just your face - the sympathy,
Mirror makes me frown,
When friends meet - I become their clown,
My pillow knows the way I feel - just down,
Sympathy, advice, pity - they drown,
Fuck that, I said one day. I picked an oversized crown.

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My spouse demands that
I Post photos of myself
Looking happy

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Loving the one
Who's not worthy
Of my time

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Happily ever after is a myth and marriages are not at all beautiful, I hear and I believe and I write but I've witnessed the other side too. Marriage being really beautiful. When there's someone blaming the husband and when the wife enters to say "I know about him, you all can mind your business," There's strength in marriage when they stand for each other. When the husband says "You go ahead! I'll take care of the kids!" and gives a gentle push.

Marriages that are stable, couples in love and not just because they say 'I love you,' every day but because the other wakes up in the middle of the night and wraps a blanket on the other.

When days together make no difference but one day without each other is so damn difficult. When money is an issue but nothing else is because they pull their shit together and stand by each other. Through thicks and thins and struggles!

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"Who is she?" my friend asked.

She's the reason why hurricanes, storms, tsunami and other calamities are named after a woman. She's a catastrophe.

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~Belief~

"Why do we always go back to the person who throws us away?"

Because, when our parents threw us to the sky, they caught us back.

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There are clouds in my head,
My days are all winter, just gray.
My face - tear-stained,
My mind is locked inside something concrete,
I'm exposed to the sun, my lungs are melting inside out,
Vodka shots and black wine,
I'm drinking up to wash my insides clean but I'm only getting dirty,
I've lost control - it was a good friend before,
I see scars - are you my new lover?
I'm in the dark,
I'm talking to the walls,
I'm mad. I'm in defeat. Euphoric rage.
Trapped. Anxious. Uncertain.
Wounds. Grudges. Haunting thoughts.
I never wanted to be born - who asked my permission to give birth?
I never wanted to live - why am I not allowed to kill?
Save me,
From myself.

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He shifted and moved closer to me.
Like he'd do, and my body reacts,
The kiss that I longed and yearned for,
I'm brushing off the thoughts about how I spent years to forget how his lips would feel against mine,
His lusty eyes traced every part of my body and so did mine,

His kiss and how I moan would make an ideal pair by itself.
The rest, is history!

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Pull me in for a kiss
I want to taste the coffee
on your lips!

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