Dear you,

If one day we become nothing
but a sweet memory, please
remember that
You are not just like every single page of my diary
You are a story that I would I love to
go through again,
You are not just for a moment, but a
forever one,
and whether it would be your chloroform jokes or
my scanner lol,
My heart will always skip a beat
wherever I'll reminisce our story of us
Dude, You are going to be my forever
favourite memory of Pune,
You know after all of these my little piece of heart
still wish that if I would have been given
a chance to write the end on my own,
Then it must be written as "what if we have worked it just
a little harder"?
What "if you have been looked it
through my eyes"?

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You know when I met you for the first,
My all mood was like,
You are going to be just another face,
But I now realised,
that another face didn't
let me sleep the whole night,
And I don't know what makes me high that night
whether that drink or your eyes,
As I couldn't stop thinking about you
the whole day,
But the craving for meeting you for the
next time cleared me,
you were not just another face,
And I don't know you are just for
a moment or my forever,
But all I want you to be my side,
holding my hands patiently
and being an ear to my sights,
And somewhere I know we are not going to
end up together,
but all I want to live in is the present
even if that's all we have,
Is this too much to ask?

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That night,
You didn't only fondle my body
but you have ripped my soul,
My inner voice became ceased,
My body became frozen,
I have known that your hands were
crawling over my thighs,
That night,
Your nail not only scratches my skin
but it has given scar to the essence,
And semi-conscious me was struggling
so hard to get you off from my body
But I couldn't, as the power of my
hands were curtailed,
The fault was mine that I trusted you,
And In the morning,
You just felt sorry for me,
But what should I do to your sorry
If the person within me broken
into the pieces,
If the nightmares that started coming after,
they never stopped coming,
If the smile of mine lost forever..

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Some said,
Her cleavage was too arousing to rape her
"Where was mine," a 9-month old baby girl asked?
Some said,
Her lipstick was so welcoming to rape her
An old lady asked, Is it?
Some said,
Her provocative dress was an invitation
to rape her,
The girl under burqas asked, Are you sure?
Some said,
She stays out the late-night that offers
us to rape her,
Then the girl who was raped in her
home asked
Is it so?

Dude, can't we just accept the fact that,
It is just an obsession or insanity of having
sex & devastating someone existence forever,
but nothing else??

-

After so many years,
I feel like writing someone in my verse,
It seems that again someone's calm
eyes had created havoc
But still that havoc,
letting her impatient soul settle down,
It seems that again someone's
smile had created chaos,
But still that chaos,
giving butterfly to her stomach
She knows that all these are
temporary moments,
But still, she couldn't stop herself
from pouring her heart on the paper
After so many years someone's
essence was working like
bonfires in this snowy weather,
She knows that it wasn't for the first time,
but she wanted it to be the last,
Coz the innocence of his eyes was created a mess,
but a beautiful mess

-

On the first day,
when I saw you in the library,
I got slight tachycardia, then I get to know,
My heart is already slipped off from
their anatomical position,

I don't know whether it becomes a case
of dextrocardia or
cardiac hypertrophy,
But I can only tell you,
From that day my heart started
pumping blood with the crunch of
extra emotions,
Mere magic of your presence is like,
Ed Sheeran is singing
'Photograph' song at the background,

I don't know why at every meeting
I become a case of aphasia
But I can only tell you,
Your eyes alone work as a drug for
all the pathological changes,
And you never you encountered me
with your decency only

So my special one
You will always be part of my diary..

-

//Let's pen your fear //

What could be the most heartbreaking moments?
Maybe Break up or getting betrayed in friendship?

But how about the feeling of getting replaced,
The fear of being replaced day by day a little more,
The spookiest feeling,

So you were already battling from inside and outside
with your overwhelming sentiments,
And the moment you realised that you have been
already replaced,
All the scenarios are just in front of your eyes
but you just can't speak anything,
Your heart just becomes so heavy that it can't hold it
anymore like your eyes can't hold your tears anymore
And you know that your tears are so
close to your eyelids but your lashes are holding it so patiently,
A single blink can burst your all the feelings but
you just can't,
you can't be so dramatic,
Becoz you need to understand that
the voids you left years ago are being totally replaced,
Your presence is almost vanishing
and even very soon you won't be gonna part of them..

And again "You just can't do anything"
this is how you just get replaced
Isn't it??

-

Sassoon General Hospitals, Pune

15/06/21

Dearest one,

The way you handle my troubles as yours,
Is what bond me a little more with you
You are the person I know who really cares
about me,
You are the person I always feel so close to
my heart even as I'm miles apart,
You are the person who can make me
smile when times are blue,
And I want to tell you that
You are 24×7 always missed!!

Wish you a Happy birthday
my personal therapist!!💚

Lots of love

Chhoti Di❤️

-

सुनो माँ,
यूँ जो मै उड़ता पतंग होती
तो तुम उसकी डोरी हो माँ

यूँ जो मैं पेड़ का टुटा पत्ता होती
तो तुम उसकी मिटटी हो माँ

यूँ जो मैं बेवाक परिंदा होती
तो तुम पूरा आसमान हो माँ

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"She never knows his lusty eyes peeped through her fabric"

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