আজ ও কোনো ভালোবাসা পূর্ণতা পেলে ,
আমি আর ও একবার ভালো বেসে ফেলি।
প্রতিদিন কিনা জানি না , কিন্তু
অনেকদিন এর মধ্যে কিছুদিন আবার কিরকম প্রেমে পরে যাই।
আবার একই ভাবে ভালোবেসে ফেলি।
এমন নয় ,চাহিদা ছিল না বা থাকে না ,
রাগ ,অভিমান ,দুঃখ ,কষ্ট সব টাই থাকে ,
মাঝে মাঝে মাথা চারা দিয়ে ওঠে।
আবার একই ভাবে অনুভূতি টাও রয়ে যায় ।
পূর্ণ - অপূর্ণ সে বোঝে না ,
শুধু কোনো একজন এর তরে ভালো তে বাস করা টা রয়ে যায় ,আবার ফিরে আসে।
কালবৈশাখিতে, উষ্ণতা তে,শীতল বাতাসে --
খালি ফিরে ফিরে আসে।

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The sky was blue ,
The valley was green ,
The colour of flowers were all around ,
It was one of the best season and place to be !!
And then just thriry minutes ....
Blue ,green ,all colours were dominated by red and red !
And the smell of death ...
Sound of hues ....
All wrapped around !
Those were gone ,are gone ...
Those stayed ...remain scarred for life and death too !
Is it really we are advancing !
With AI AI all around ....
Still ,bullets takes away life !
Still ,people have unwanted deaths ! Still ,people fights ,kills over some human created borders on beliefs !!
Are we really advancing ?
Or it's just some parts of India !
From where I see and feel ,I can see three India ...
One our so called "heaven " kashmir ,one forever neglected North east and
The rest !!
Feelings are hard ,
Not anger but helplessness ,not frustrated but mockery at our own self what we belief achievements!
The valley ,the sky is red !
as always !

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When I had hopped on that bus ,
it was just a meeting with my two homies including my furry one !
But as I meet them ,it felt I had reached shore after crossing oceans !
It's not a perfect place ,but it's a comfortable one !
It may be chaotic but with calmness .
Their place has an enchanted forest inside it ,
Some with greens ,some with just love !
everytime I come here ,my clock stops ticking !
for me time is still !
my two homies ,may be just a 5 min drive or two days movie marathon !
or just nothing !
all this makes it wholesome !
when I would again hopp on my return journey ..
I will again wait for this journey !

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What is actually " Art " ! ...
This question has came across my mind many times !
But the real answer i got when the roads were closed ,we all were locked inside our house for months I suppose !
We all could finally look around ,count the stars ,look into the changing hues of sky ,get to know our neighbours,to realise the world that was trapped within us !
So For me ,the "Art" is which gives us little joy in our toughest times ,which heals the inner me ,my soul !
It can be a splash of colours on canvass ,it can be that one small smicolon that fixes my code ,it can be moving pictures,stories ,words and sometimes even nothing ! Just still !
And without ART we all are just clay people like AI directed future robohumans !!

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There sits a stupid box in my cozy corner ,
which only responses to frequency difference!
cities changed , teenage became adult ,
language changed , but that stupid box remained same !
From late night constant music , to stupid love advice, to stories ,
From those inspirational talks ,to my daily news bulletin !
You were there !
Phone came ,big mobile phone came ,
YouTube came ,Spotify and all came ,
But for me ....you are still my favourite!
May be old school they say ,
May be Gone they say ,
But for me ...
" Radio " ,You hold an important place !
In my cozy corner ,between my dreamy curtains ,you play those wonderful chords that I wish to hear !
To my radio ,my FM ...
" Happy world radio day "!!

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Promise to be in our white and black ,
and also grey ,to make our own rainbow !

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Every time she meets him ,
a part of her is left !
Every minute she encounters ,
she counts her deep breathes and her racing heart !
Every time she sees him ,
she tries to read those eyes ,tries to remember all the expression of his ,to mesmerize at end !
Every time they meet ,
he asks " how it felt "!
And ,
every time she is left with no word !
Every time she hears his voice ,
she feels a little less distance from him !
Eighteen seasons ,three springs ,three fall has gone ,
Still ! Excitement ,cold breeze remains same !
Everytime she meets him ,
She feels to rest her head and feel the peace in her "home "! everytime !

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Somedays .....
Are like cloudy days ,like I can't see sun but can feel it !
Some days
Are like rainy days , like I can feel and see rain ,but needed sun !
Some days
Are like days only ! A part sunny ,a part cloudy , a part rainy , a part fall and a part gone !
Some days ,
Just needed to pass, just need to be there !
Some days ,
are just some days !
Some day or any day ,
All is needed to be there !
No music ,no quotes ,no self motivation podcast ,no dance ,no sun ,no rain ,no clouds ,no person ...
can make your day ,just 'day' on some days !
We all just have to be there ,by ourself at once ,for once ,for all days ,for some days ,for just days !
Just 'you' only ,can make your day ,just 'day' on some days !

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There may be thousand reasons not to love you ,
but there is only one to love you !
There are hundreds reason not to worry for you ,
But there is only one to worry for you !
There may be ten reason not to think about you ,
But there is only one to think about you !
When it rains ,i worry that you shouldn't catch cold or fever ,
When it's sunny ,i think the sun is too hot for you to sustain outside .
When cold breeze sways, I think about you taking hot chai .
Even the seasons ,give me reasons to remember you !
May be there are thousand reasons for not loving you ,
But there is only one , no reason ,not to love you !
In this rain ,sun ,under sky ,in snow ,in fall ,in dews
Till I get reasons to love you ,
I will keep falling for you and rise again to fall 🍁!

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As the year ends we all count the achievements and failures ,
Half we have won and half we have loss !
Mostly the unspoken battles counts ,
let's dive into the tell of tales,as the year ends !
Years have gone ,still I am numb!
Covid came and went ,still I was numb !
The feeling was scary ,unknown to me ! Still it is !
As that March came ,but I am still standstill !
That year March came with a huge blow ,
this is not going to be tale that will glow !
All talk about losses in its own way ,
about love ,friendship ,parenting and everything in bits and pieces !
But the toughest one ,is the elder sibling(bro) loss!
In one nutshell ,your past ,present and future is gone !
This tale shouldn't be of anyone ,
But it's the reality check fos someone!
As the year ends ,
since then I have lost all the battles that I have won !
As the year ends ,
still I am numb !
Still ! I am numb !

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