Just like the red beans inlaid in the
Tinkling ivory dice,
My longing for you runs deep in my
Bones

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Woh affate dil oh jaan par agar na marta
Toh apna marna ki har dam dua kiya na karta
Na hosh khota agar hum uski baato ma
Toh ap hi ap asi baata kiya na karta
Na lagti ankh toh din raat sotta hi rheta
Kisi ki cha na karta toh kya na karta
Jo hum yaad na karta teri unn baato ko iss tarah
Toh yu dekh chand ko tuja iss kadar yaad na karta
Na Waffa karta tuja itni
Na tera ana ka iss kadar intzar kia karta

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Truth should be left unsaid
Screeches must not be heard
Those painful quiverings can't be seen
This bruised soul should always be hidden
Invisible
I wanna be invisible as a bust of air
Which should be felt but can't be seen
These walls should be revamped to hold much stronger force
I will bid my time
I will wait for my turn
And will strike so hard
They will feel my pain ,my despair
They will beg for forgiveness
But nothing would reach them on time
Not even death
Because living is much harder
My retribution will be much more painful than death
Just wait for me to rise again
I will have your screeches known

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The voices
They are here again asking the same things
Again and again
Just go for it
The pain will fade away
And the relief will soon follow
Scars will fade with time
But what about the scars on my soul
What about the screams of my heart
Will it ever quench it's thirst for more
Or will I bury myself in this self loathing
Called self harm
Some may call me sick some will call me coward
But I am someone with heavy heart and even heavier soul
Tainted with Expectations and living day by day
Minute by minute for some other soul

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Vo khaa gaya aur hum samaj bhi na paya,
Jab samaj paya tab mil bhi na paya ,
Aa guru tera charno ma hum rha bhi na paya,
Aur vo bs chala gaya aur hum roo bhi na paya

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Maybe the journey
Is not so much about
Becoming anything
Maybe it's about
Unbecoming
Everything that isn't
Really you
So you can be who
You were meant to be
In the first place.

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Life is a train wreck
Or a old dam ready to fall
But this this soothing fall brings a lot
With something new
Comes something ole
With something fresh
Come something memorable
That we can never part from.

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A dull moment ,Never even
An ounce of sadness
That lingers in her awe filled
Eyes , looking for her Pa
To come home and cook
For her, tuck her in and
Read those merry stories for her.

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Some nights are Hard to pass by
Some are easy
Yet there are some nights
Filled with absolute terror .
When little Clay spoke
He asked a simple question
Filled with absolute innocence and naviety
Mama why is black a sign of evil and lies
And white a sign of peace and truth ?
Why are angels white ?Are there no darker
People qualified to be an angel?

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Of moonless sky
Enveloping everything
In darkness wistfully.
Pretending to be calm and
Collected even in the
Dreadful silence ,
Hiding away all pains
And miseries ,
Monotonously like
The angel of death itself.

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