Oh to never be mourned
And be put on a pedestal

To be talked about well out loud
When they only hold your flaws inside

To never be remembered than be remembered and forgotten

To merge into the wind like a silent wind
Because when the storm comes, no one holds you

To disappear like a dark stranger in the night
To never miss the arms that once held you tight

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On a night as dark as a maiden's hair
The boots leave deep imprints in the carpet of snow
Surrounded by trees who have long shed Any evidence of their youth
The wind whisper it's secrets in my ears
And the cold creeps into my heart

And I walk and I walk
Unescorted and unchaperoned
With only melancholy holding my hand
And when the hair on my skin stand
I feel a cold breath on my neck

I close my eyes
To surround myself with my own darkness
And suddenly everything is gone
The cold, the melonchaly, the despair;
The breath - both mine and theirs

As the woods engulf me
I don't know what is left of me
Am I the trees or the trees are me?

Their branches are my veins
Their leaves are my skin
My heart has merged into their dead barks
And there is no more me

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I remember all the moments in my life.
I just don't remember experiencing them.

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When I said I was afraid to go in the dark
You caged me
Instead of the ones I was afraid of

When I said I don't feel safe around someone
You reprimanded me
Instead of the monster around me

When I said I wanted to fly in the sky
You clipped my wings
Instead of the vultures out there

And when they finally got to me
You asked me "how could this happen?"
Not realising that it was you
Who has always made it happen

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How much do we have to scream and shout for you to realize we aren't objects for you to use?
How much do we have to beg and cry for you to realize we are humans too?
How much do we have to endure and suffer for you to realize it's time to leave us alone?



-A tired Indian woman

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Grief is all I have left
Grief is all I have known

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You're like the stars in the sky
You feel so scattered in your mind,
But for our eyes,
You're only spreading light.

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Have you ever loved a person
So much that you don't know
How to escape them?

Have you ever felt the soaring
In your heart just by
Stealing a glance at someone?

Have you ever held a hand
That fit perfectly into yours
And filled all the gaps?

Have you ever looked into
The eyes of the one you love
And seen your desires mirrored into them?

Have you ever loved someone
More than everything
More than yourself?
I promise you it's so beautiful

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You can perform all the rituals
You can look at all the photographs
You can go to all the flashbacks
You can scatter their ashes
Or you can visit their graves
You can light a candle
You can leave flowers
You can hold their clothes
You can walk in their room
You can scream and shout
You can cry and yell
But your voice will never reach them
Your hands will never touch them
You will never feel their presence
And in the end,
You will never be able to fill this void
You will only be empty

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And is there any fate more terrible than to stay in this world while the ones you love are in the clouds far beyond?

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