I wonder how stupid can one be unable to differentiate between the bouts of chiding and bouts of emotional abuse

Seldom thought I could be defeated
For I carried a torch within me
As bright as the sun

Here I am standing defeated

Admitting to defeat on my knees
Dug deep into the ground

I hope you can live at peace now.

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Dear boss,

People told me women are the worst kind of bosses to deal at work. I refused to believe them and years later right now in tears I agree. I never thought this day would come when I would be broken and shattered. Every ounce of pride and self love I had fought so hard to build was broken down to pieces, done away with.

After years of work we did together hardly once you could find something nice to say. I wondered why was I working in this office. Everyday of my life you made me feel like a charity case who has won a free pass to walk into this office. And I still to this day feel like one. I have always wanted women to move up the ladder because I felt we needed the sisterhood to become stronger so that we could lean on to each other and derive strength from each other. But turns out I was wrong. The only thing you are capable of is striping people of their pride.

Today you are at a much settled place in your life and I believe hence you are able to be much more appreciative of other people. Just making me wonder why did I have to put up with your worst side.

I hope that you can continue to be a better person than you were ever to me.

Good luck !

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Looking at you gives me hope that today is a whole new day..

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As I lie awake in the middle of
the night anxiously
I hope that
tomorrow has something better for me
I hope
For miracles to work
To be able to believe
To be able to laugh, cry and dance
As I wish

For everyday is a battle I have fought too hard
Just not been able to win
I wake up
Hoping to survive

For I have not yet learnt to bend the knee.

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I am just like this.In fact always was.
You think I really care?
I really don't have time for this.
It doesn't matter.

Everytime you said one of these things,
Each time, my heart broke a little more

Only hoping you could see the cracks,
But you were not the one to stop
You continued until one day I walked away.
It didn't matter then.
It doesn't matter now.

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Everytime I believe I have moved on
I look at you smile at me
I kick myself in my mind
Smiling dreamily.
Damn, that smile I think!

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In the crowd
I look around to find a familiar face
Hoping to find solace in it

Not knowing
Time has a way of making familiar
Stranger too..

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It's so funny how often we use heavy words to convey simple emotions?
Life would be so much easier if we could just speak our minds and write our souls.

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I see you smile as you glance at her
shuffling on your feet
Like a little boy
As I pass by you
I see your eyes sparkle
As you speak to her.

I see your eyes
As you say you love me
And I feel a pang in my heart
Because I know
This love is different,
This love has no sparkle,
This love is no adventure,
It is like the sea,
Existing in moments you just want to be.

I see you glowing
Holding hands with her
At that moment
We spot each other,
You wave over.
At that moment,
As I walk over to your smiling faces,
I settle for being your sea.

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If you ever feel that you are giving up so many things to attain one particular thing,
Make sure you attain it because the sacrifices need to be avenged.

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