54 years to step into my truth
To open my eyes
To thank those whose ways guided
But to call a spade a spade
My truth my truth
To learn to live in alignment now
It's not too late
I'm just in time

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The Male spirit
A fascinating mystery
A child loose on the playground of adulthood
I want to join in!
His fierce laughter chuckles through the wind
Standing as a knight
I am breathless at his game
But if in truth,
He should lead the dance
He may have my hand
For to dance in this wind
I find someone familiar
A way to play
Feels right at home
I take you
On guard!

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Not looking for love anymore,
Magic Happens...

"Said the Winged Kitty"
Going to be my most authentic self,
With even more drive than before

We are talking the most damn authenticity that I've ever mustered, to really enjoy this life, which is getting shorter and shorter, as I get more real and more real, year by year, month by month, soaking it up like crazy, to just be the best Shelley I can be.
Seen or not seen,
Just being me.
Imperfections and all.
And there is nothing more me than a long winded poem on a picture of a kitty with wings
Because I like him that's why.
He makes me happy.

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23 years

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The waiting is over
For here I find myself
I am enough
I long to fill the space
The pain of knowing
Such a space
All to myself
But, if not shared
I can still be me
And the wait is not worth it
You are not worth it
No one is worth the wait.

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What if the ones with ADD
Are the normal ones?
What if the folks who concentrate
And never stop
And stay on task without fail
Are the truly strange ones?

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A Rambling to My Late Best Friend

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Most men do not want to know women.

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Everyone has pain
Mine is not finding the person
Losing it too young
Knowing how great it can be
And being told time and time again
What love is by those who have never known love
What a healthy relationship is
To "not be serious"
To be told singleness is fabulous
Over and over knowing the truth
That it's not
I'm not codependent
I find that insulting
No
I am wise
And I know what I lost
And I know no one knows what they are missing
As they explain the wisdom
And I smile
Because at least I had it once
Just not long enough

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So, I spoke my truth
And now my voice
Recognizably me
So freeing
So real
But she is hiding now
So embarrassing
Under a freaking chair
Get out here silly girl
You are a part of existence
Vital and real
Necessary
Unfurl those wings
Proudly
So much work you have spent
To be right here
So raw and you
Don't stop

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