"Tangled Love"

We met by chance
But I never knew it will be our start.

Start to our new life,
Where we are tangled to each other
Like honey bee to its hive.

Life made us meet each other
With its new story line,
Where we didn't even knew
We will be together in life.

While living my life,
I never thought love will come to me
In the form of light.

The light which shines bright,
The light which gives hope in life,
The light which makes me smile,
The light which is you in my life.

In this story of life,
I am happy that you are someone
Who is Love of my Life.

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"I just want to give up "

I can't anymore,
I feel so miserable,
Not being able to do anything-
After soo much hard work.

I feel so lonely,
I feel so lost,
I feel so sad,
I feel so miserable,
I just can't with this pressure.

I want my life to get filled with things I like,
I want to do things that I like
But
This world of competition,
Won't let me fit in.

I have different thinking,
I have things that I like to do,
I have things that I want to do
But to live a proper life in today's world,
I need to study about things I don't like.

This world is full of things,
Which force people-
To do the things which they don't like.
Past made this world so hard to live,
That present makes me wanna give up,
Give up on everything.

I just want to lay down,
I just want these unwanted things to go away,
I just want this pressure to go away,
So far that I don't have to see it ever.

I hope my life fills with the things I love to do,
I hope my life fills with the things which makes me wanna live more.

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Have you ever talked to yourself?
Have you ever tried to listen to yourself?
Do you know how you really feel?
Do you know if you are sad or happy from inside?
These are the questions people ask.

Yes, I have.
I have tried to listen to myself,
I have heard how happy it is
I have heard how sad it is
I have heard how broken it is.
I have seen those tears coming out of my eyes,
While telling me how it felt.

There were many times,
I have tried to listen to myself.
It tells me how hard it has worked in life
It tells me how happy it gets, when it sees people smile.
It tells me how broke it is because of some people it has met in life.
It tells me how much it hurts to see,
All those people act innocent after hurting me deeply from inside.

All those feelings of friendship became betrayal.
All those people who said, I am their friend
Became one of those betrayers.
They acted as if what they did was nothing,
They acted as if it was them who's feelings were broken into pieces
But it was me,
I made them special in my life.
I became happy to have them in my life
But
They just treated me like a passer-by,
Whom they once saw in life.
This feeling of sadness only being by my side.

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"Depression neve came as choice "

You say I don't speak about my problems,
You say I don't let you know what I am going through,
You say I don't try to reach to you
But
Have you ever tried knowing why I am like that?
Have you ever tried listening to me?
Have you ever tried talking to me?

No, the answer is always no.

You are my parents who is saying things like,
What you have to go through?
What are you even worried about?
What are you even taking pressure of?

Like, if you have problems than so do I,
I also have pressure of not being enough,
For not being able to do what I want to do,
For not being able to give you the happiness you have given to me,
For not being able to become the child you have dreamt about.

You say why are you in depression?
And there's nothing like that,
And that I am just trying to run away in life.

I hope it was that easy,
I hope it was just about running,
I hope it never gave me the thought of dying.

You don't understand,
That I am so thankful to you
That I end up thinking that I am not enough for you
Because
I am not being able to give you back,
The happiness you have given to me
The things you have sacrificed for me
The things you have done for me.

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Colour Can Speak
Those Thoughts
Which
You Really Wanna
Say.

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