I had been defeated, Lost and Warped,
My trust betrayed, I couldn't get up,
I needed someone to help me ;
I prayed to God, with all my might!
God Was so worried , She came down herself,
I couldn't believe the sight!
For She had Assumed my teacher's face.
She said ," She had been watching over me,
That defeat is not the end, If you honestly
Keep working hard, You shall feel Victory again".
I laughed at my naivete, I cried at my stupidity!
While my Teacher blessed me with Knowledge and Prosperity .
I learnt that defeat was not the end,
I learnt that You'd have to get up,
I learnt that God is among us,
Sometimes as your Teacher, Always as your Friend.

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এবার বিদায় নিলাম,অনেক তো চেষ্টা করলাম
মানিয়ে নেওয়ার।
মুখোশগুলো ভিড়ে কোথায় হারিয়ে গেছে,
আকাশ টা তোমার নামে থাক
আর সমুদ্র টা আমার Share.

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What keeps you up at night??
Maybe a knock on the door?
Something keeps haunting me, from
Back when I was four.
Masked humans, always lying;
Misleading, Terrifying!
Are you gonna start sugarcoating??
That won't work, cause I
Saw you without your mask:
It must be frustrating..
What keeps you up at night??
Maybe the voices in your head?
I cover my eyes when I sleep,
Dreams turn into nightmares. Often,
I wish I was Dead!

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Souvenirs huh?
.
.
War has broken out..
Life has no value
Dusty and Red Skies,
Innocent people paying the price.
Who's calling the shots?
Screaming; While her body rots ..
It's not about why we fail!
Maybe things were supposed to go off the rails.
I needed this to make sense,
Didn't wanna play this worthless game.
Felt like I've had enough.
.
.
Souvenirs huh?
Nope, I didn't bring any!

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Did u get a new lens?
I can't recognise you anymore,
Maybe my perspective changed,
I like this cold blue silence.
I never wanted this space,
Just wanted to close the distance.
The bridge broke down,
I don't think my voice reaches you anymore,
Is this what you wanted?
For me to stop the Chase.
It's freezing out here,
The fire is dying out.
Is this how it ends?
I lied, I hate this Cold
Painful ,Blue, silence. — % &

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I just wanted to be seen by you
The cracks won't fix themselves!
Did you tell me something?
Or was that in my head?
Nightmares are getting too real;
Can't even get out of Bed.
It's always been like this,
Like I am lost and
The doors won't open.
I hope I'm visible someday
Before I meet my end.
Tired of running around,
Deliberately missed my train;
I really wanted to be seen by you
Feel the relentless requiem Rain.

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Time always runs out,
Things are too Mechanical.
Hidden Intentions, Shallow Whispers
Resonating Pain, Life's too Critical.
Deafening silence all over, Nervous
Shivers! And brain's not functional.
Death feels better already
Zero skill set and all out of energy.
No help and Crippling Anxiety;
Details are too Technical.

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Told me to wait
Thought I'd never Regret.
Said all those things
And got in my head.
I was already alone
But this feels so bad!!
I just wanted to be happy
Now I'm fucking going mad!
I guess i crossed a few lines
Guess I didn't know my Place;
Maybe It didn't matter what I did!
Maybe I'm just Worthless.

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On that day;
It was raining purple,
I was afraid and worried
Started running full circle.
Death was knocking at the door
Life was running out,
Peace was no more!
And in the midst of all that chaos
Hellish screams and substantial blood loss
I Sat down to smoke ,thought to myself
Not really much of a difference from before
Except it's raining purple
So I'm not worrying any more.

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I forgot to water the Plants last night,
They died today.
"Check the corners!" She said,
And I didn't...
Too many Cracks, Too many distractions,
Bullet spreads and White threads..
They came in Armoured Trucks.
Spilled Blood and Business Cards...
Can you see the moon?
It's gonna be nightfall soon.
I just wanted to clench my thirst
Before this bubble bursts.
I didn't forget to water the plants last night
I killed them!!!!

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