To Love

May be,
I don't know
How it feels like to wake up having this thought,
which wants you not to leave your bed
but to go back to this dark sleep
Where no one can see you you and numbness
When you are so much happy
but that doesn't mean anything to you
Inside you are torn apart,
this heavy baggage of words is always there
to supress that happiness
You even count seconds of this misery,
thoughts make you choke
you wonder what's the point of existence
There are these thousand thrones which prick you
All this time my soul is right beside you,
consuming your sadness
May be, you don't know

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Those stroll through the trees
Those Bicycle rides on empty road
Those drops of rain
Those days of happiness
Those night full of fireflies
Those stares of hope
Those times I let you go
Those times I didn't ask you to stay
Those you
Those me

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To a lost soul

I know you are lost and alone
In this endless maze of conundrum,
You barely hold yourself together
And this baggage of expectations
Weighs you down more,
The hope is dim
And dreams low far ashore,
The path is not visible,
Still you have to walk
Because there is life
Waiting for you
To be lived
The gift of your grit
To be unwrapped

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May be, I don't know,
How it feels like to wake up having this thought
Which wants you not to leave your bed
But to go back to this dark sleep
Where no one can see you and numbness
When you are so much happy
But that doesn't mean anything to you
Inside you are torn apart
This heavy baggage of failures is always
there to supress that happiness
You even count seconds of this misery
Thoughts make you choke
You wonder what's the point of existence
There are these thousand thrones
which prick you
You are lost and hopeless
But all this time I am with you
My love and soul is consuming your pains
May be, one day you will know

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You kept achieving your dreams
I kept dreaming of you
You kept acing the expectations
I kept expecting of you
You kept living the life
I kept living for you
You reached the destination
I kept waiting for you
You are on your path
I am still seeking you

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This fear which consumes me
The fear which chokes my words
Words which flows through my eyes
Stream of unspoken words
Stream of feelings
Stream of my being
Flowing to it's conclusion
Conclusion which is you
The deep sea
Sea which hides the fear
Is full
Yet dry

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Decades have passed and
The most recent in my mind
Your face
Your giggle
Your voice
Your touch
Your memories
Your soul
Just like the last second of my life

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The place I have been
The place with my heart,
There lies
Longing for the peace
Falling leaves
Lonely roads
Cycling with no destination
Wind rustling through trees
Sun playing shadow games
Smell of the forest

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This frozen winter night
This maze of my imagination
This perpetual conundrum
This constant you

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The day arrive when everything goes numb, that moment I wish you cherish the memories where I have been all yours

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