I sit on the broken couch in a room,
with my legs stretched onto a chair.
Listening to the percussive sounds,
and moving my head to its snares.

An unusual feeling flows up and down,
emanating strongly in chest and in head.
It couldn't be the chill of listening to music,
as it was something more inexplicable.

I care the least for what it actually is,
as long as it can keep me from my fears.
My mind experiences constant pleasure,
as I drown and imitate the sounds myself.

It doesn't matter if others frown upon me,
for being the kind to like what's not mainstream.
So I am just going to sit in the broken couch,
and keep listening and imitating all day.

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In all the time I have lived thus far,
I tried to think right for the most part.
I always had a set of morales in my head,
that I kept referring to now and then.

Whenever a question was posed to me,
I would answer the way it felt right.
But I realized in doing so that way,
I was just thinking from the top of my head.

I would try to be the wise of all,
and say words that satisfy the lot.
But if I were to be there in reality,
would I dare do whatever it is I said?

Would I stay true to myself and do,
or remain someone who just talks?
If I can't stay true to my words,
then what's the meaning behind it all?

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I looked back at myself tonight,
way back when I was a curious kid.
The time I spent chatting online,
and living a care free life.

I was oblivious to everything,
even to my surroundings.
What mattered was just games,
and having fun chatting and playing.

But now that I look back at myself,
I am not sure if I should laugh or cry.
Whether I miss the memories I made,
or be happy that I am not that naive.

And with all these thoughts in my head,
I lack the words to conclude well.
So all I can do is just smile and frown,
and wonder what's it like in the future.

For him to look at me the way I am now.

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Remember things don't last forever,
even when you are under the light.
You are travelling constantly in a cave,
whether it be forwards or backwards.

It is a mystery why the universe
turns the light on and off as you go.
It is with a bit of luck and hope,
that you will stay in the light longer.

Even then

There is no light at the very end,
except for darkness as your eyes close.

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I felt the time had come to move on,
despite the memories we share.
I knew there was no other choice left,
as my heavy heart struggled to beat.

But you didn't want to let me go,
as I am a person you say you trust.
It was as if I wasn't meant to leave,
as I kept having second thoughts.

So I hardened my heavy heart and stayed,
hoping that everything will be fine soon.
It was all because of your persistence,
that I had the strength to be with you.

A few days had passed by quick,
but one thing is on my mind ever since.
Where were you, the one who made me stay,
where did all your promises go away?

You will not understand the pain I have,
seeing memories that plagued us before.
Why did you refuse to let me go,
only for you to leave me alone?

Why?

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Weird Thought 1

When you fall, you didn't fall like
anything else did, whether it be an
empire or a mere person. When you
fall, there was probably a dog barking
at your stupidity, or a person doing a
bungie jump at the other end of the world.

You see, everything is different around
you so when you fall, it's YOUR fall.
No one else fell like you did, except for
you.

And by fall, I mean literally.

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They say that history repeats, in one
form or the other. And it's not that
uncommon to find yourself at the
dead center of it.

It's unusual to trace the path of
someone you never knew existed.
But even more weird when the
path you trace is yours.

It's life's way of saying that you haven't
grown up, and it will show no mercy.
Imagine being caught up in a loop
of your own past.

The moment you feel the emotions
from far back and recognize them,
it's not nostalgia anymore, it's hell.
You hear me? Hell.

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Tell me what to do my stupid mind,
shall we kill the heart that flutters?

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The Reluctance to Leave

Poem in Caption

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I see the many colors of light flash
and hear sudden bursts of noise.
All of it is so overwhelming for my
feeble mind to take in at once.

I try to look away, but it's everywhere.
All I can do is just close my eyes into
darkness. I can still hear, and there's
not much that I can do about it.

Even if I try to cover my ears, I can
still hear it loud and very much clear.
I run and run everywhere, hoping to
find a place that I can see and hear.

But it's hopeless, it's everywhere.
There isn't any escape from it, at least
for now. I crawl into a corner I can
find, and wait for it to die out.

Hopefully it won't be too long

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