I used to make my insecurities go away.
But now they’ve come back just to ruin me.
They stab me in the back,
and twist the knife.
Just to ruin me -
Ruin my life.

Insecurities are just that.
Things that make you feel less about yourself-
or you compare yourself to others;
based on the bad traumatic experiences in your life.

Why am I so insecure?
body image,
thinking I’ll never been good enough,
& personal problems that can’t be solved.

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I’m sorry for existing. I’m sorry simply for breathing. I’m sorry I’m not perfect. I’m sorry I have flaws. I’m sorry for my disabilities. I’m sorry for having depression. I’m sorry that I suffer from trauma. Im sorry that I have break downs. I’m sorry I can’t hide my emotions. I’m sorry that I can’t flip a switch to turn things off. I’m sorry for all my problems. I’m sorry that I can’t do things right.

I’m sorry for the scars on my back, from carrying so much weight around. I’m sorry that I’m never good enough. I’m sorry I’m a burden. I’m sorry you fell in love with me. I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry for being myself, human. I’m simply just sorry.

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You can’t save face
with a shotgun wedding

It’ll end in disgrace,
you’ll wonder what went wrong.
Because honestly, six months
ain’t even that long.

Met in June,
Knocked up in July,
Engaged in December -
baby on the way too
in June.

Like I said,
You can’t save face
with a shotgun wedding.

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I have a thing
for vintage things.

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Because of you -
I have a good life.
I don’t know what I’d do -
without you making it alright.

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Jesus saves -
with amazing grace.

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if I could change the world
for one person,
then I’ve done something.

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I’m here to tell you -
that God is good,
He has saved you.

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this is my prayer to you,

I pray that you will do -
good in your life,
& find God
because He will make
everything alright.

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I’ve changed my ways,
learned how to pray -
& I’m thinking about you today.

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