Words on the paper and
emotions in my heart are
all the therapy I need
to feel secure
and calm...

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If i could be anywhere in this maddening universe, the only place i would choose to be would be in your arms. The heartbreaks endured would then seem like distant dreams when you hold me tight, and i can hear your heartbeat. The warmth of your embrace and the softness of your hands are the only healers i will ever need. The world stands still when we are together, and yet it spins out of control for me in my tiny little existence. I close my eyes and breathe for the first time, and then i realize it's just me and my dreams. You are nowhere to be found, and yet you occupy my every waking thought. Life goes on, days months and years, and i am still here wondering if it will all ever be real...

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Looking at the night sky filled with a billion stars, i can't help but miss you, my love. The nights that go by without you by my side and the painful void that i feel breaks my heart every time. Some days, i feel, do you even remember me, my dear, or am i the only one dreaming of this beautiful love story. But then i realize that loving you after a heartache felt just like a sailor finding their north star as it guides them to shore after being adrift at the sea. You are my safe space, my home, my future, and my only one true companion in this world full of strangers. Your beautiful face, your radiant smile, and your kind heart are the only things that i need to survive in this or any other lifetime. So, my love, please send me a sign in the night sky, for i wish to see you smile through the moon that peeps on my windowsill as i drift into my eternal sleep feeling loved by you...

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Help me find the world where there are no scars left to heal, no broken heart to mend and no sleepless nights thinking and loving the one who doesn't know nor care that i even exist. Looking for a place where my heart can find home and my soul some eternal peace. A place where people are empathetic and never betray another for some cheap thrills. Where wearing your heart on your sleeve is not a sign of weakness, its infact a necessity to live. Find me that world, because the world i live in today was never meant for me and everyday here is a day more of pain and misery. When you are surrounded by people who laugh at your naivety and ridicule your heart, when all you want is to be left alone in your thoughts, is not your place to be...So help me to find a world where it is ok to be just me....

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I cant choose to not to feel the way i do about you. I cant choose to not love you, even though it is completely one sided. I cant choose to move you away from my thoughts, because you occupy every millisecond of my walking hour. I cant choose to remove you from my heart, because you are stamped into my dna and live in my bones forever. I can't choose to do all that because i don't wish to live my life any other way. The world may call me stupid for being in love with someone who has no idea of my feelings nor does have any inclination towards my existence. But i am hooked to him and his presence, from here on till eternity...

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I find it difficult to understand how people just stab you in the back for no rhyme or reason. One day they swear up and down their entire existence that they would keep a secret and the next thing you hear is them spilling the beans as if you are some sort of cheap gossip. This betrayal for what, some thrills and unwarranted laugh at the expense of the one who is not present to defend themselves. Who are these people who don't have enough in their own lives that they have to invade the privacy of others, especially after calling them friends. Ah, well, such is a depraved mentality where even the most beautiful of emotions is paraded as cheap gossip. But with everything they forget...karma is real and keeps count of everything! Brace yourselves now...

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Your memories are like the flowers that I have secretly kept in my dairy away from the prying eyes of the world. The world will never understand our kind of love where no communication or commitments were ever needed to make it true for us. Every obstacle and every opportunity for me to be with you makes my love even more resolute. The times when we were together, even though so far and few between, are my greatest treasures in this lifetime. Your thoughts make me smile, and even now, when i am penning my thoughts, i can clearly see your beautiful face beaming with joy. Your essence is now part of my existence, and no amount of negativity around me can dim that feeling, now or ever. So, my love, know this you are mine, and i am yours forever...

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Even if we don't talk everyday, you light up my world like a night sky filled with billion stars. You are my soulmate, my inspiration, my reason to smile again in this cruel and practical world. The smile on your face reaches my soul and radiates out the light that i never knew existed. Your natural charm and the most kind demeanor makes me fall in love with you every single day. Life happens to everyone and the reality is that I havent seen you in so long that my heart aches to see your beautiful face. We somehow have become those two stars traveling the night never to be in the same place at the same time. But fret not my love, for the love that i carry in my heart surpasses every earthly boundary and lights up in my heart forever...

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My pen knows what ails my heart, for its the only thing in the world that lets me express my deepest darkest emotions on paper without any judgment or malice. When i am happy, my pen dances with my heartbeat, it glides rhythmically like a skilled ice skater on ice. But when my soul is hurting, each word comes thumping on the page and my pen screeches in agony. It is truly the extension of my being and my best friend for life. Even though it entered my life like a mysterious stranger, it quickly became my salvation in this cruel world. I am an introvert when it comes to expressing my feelings, especially to the one i love with all my heart. My pen is my wingman and writes exactly what i intended to speak. So, my dearest friend, stay, never leave because without you, my life is one blank lonely page...

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The Night Sea...

The beautiful moon lit sky filled with a billion stars reminds me the love i feel for you, for you are my north star guiding me ashore. Your absence from my universe pains me to no end, and then i find a million reasons to distract myself from the truth. But even with all the humdrum of life that is happening around me, your thought is one constant that never leaves my soul. The hours of separation have fallen into days and days into months ever since I saw your beautiful face. The yearning tugs at my soul, and my heart skips a beat every time i hear a whisper of your name. It is then i realize i am as alone as the night sea longing to meet the moon, but with every attempt comes crashing down back on earth. My only wish, therefore, is that i would feel like heaven. If you could shed a tear and remember me long after, i am gone forever...

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