I can't sleep at nights
My eyes are barely open
My head aches
But I can't sleep at nights

Now days I stay quiet
I used joke around
I used to be a chatter box
But now days I stay quiet

I used to write a lot
Now I just try to release my stress
Sometimes I pen down with white ink
But I used to write a lot

I used to know myself
Now in mirror I see just a face
I don't know this dead body
But I used to know myself

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I was one happy soul
They killed me
They buried me
They took me out and reanimated me

Its the same old story
I don't think its ever gonna end
I guess its my fault
'cause I understand too much

Its not a poem
Neither its a story
Its just my feelings
That I keep to myself

I used to share things
What I got in return?
A few laughed on my misery
Some accused the way I am

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My pen became silent
I think he's depressed
Well why wouldn't he be
His favourite notebook is lost

Name of the notebook was "My Life"
I can't find her anywhere
I looked up in the sky to search her
But I got lost in the stars.

Stars are trying to say something
Its a pattern up above I see
They say they don't have "My Life"
She's lost somewhere within me.

I then looked inside me
Those stars gave me some hope
But with some other books inside
"My Life" was burnt down by fire.

I told my pen about her
He asked where did the fire came from
I wish I had an answer
I just wish, I had the answer.

I failed my pen
It was me who burnt down "My Life"
She was his favourite notebook.
That he gave me to hide.

Now I remember everything
He said "My Life" was incomplete
That he will complete her later
And gift me "My Life".

The fire inside burnt down the house
With the house is burning "My Life"
The pen cried out all the ink
And counted its last breath and died.

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The things I do
Sacrifices I make
Seems like
No one really cares

They only see
Mistakes I made
That I really didn't want to
To them it doesn't matter

They only wanna see white
Can't accept my black
I'm only a crack
In the castle of glass

I'm broken inside
I'm suffering in pain
My smile faded away
When it started to rain

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Likhne kuch aur baitha tha
Likh kuch aur raha hu
Doosro ki chodho
Maine to khud se khud ko chupa liya

Shikayat hai tumse ek
Afsos ki keh nahi sakta
Isi afsos ka afsos karke
Baat ko dil me hi daba diya

Shabdo ki kami nahi hai
Par vichar ab aur aate nahi
Dekha jaye to ye bhi mai likh nahi paata
Agar tum mujhse rooth jaate nahi

Na kehte hue bhi in baato ne
Bohot kuch btaa diya
Aakhri shabd bacha rakhe the
Unko bhi maine luta diya

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There are these 1000 thoughts running wild in my mind
I'm anxious I'm depressed its no more matter of time
One moment i wanna kill myself
Next moment i wanna live this life
One moment i receive all the love
Next moment i find its a lie
This tornado of the emotions
Its taking me to a fall
Earlier i had nothing
But now I've to risk it all
Man I'm scared of my thoughts
I'm scared what I posses inside
Everyday he's growing stronger
And I'm losing this fucking fight

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Hitting me with speed of light
I can't take it anymore, fuck you life!
I don't know where to go or where to cry
They left me on the ground and flew up high
I control my feelings trying to let it go
And the pott is getting filled with poison oh no!
Sometimes i feel thing's are fine
And the next moment I'm writing all these rhymes
All the efforts i make are they waste of time?
Sometimes i think I should commit that crime
All this negativity i wanna throw away
You tried to get the best of me, go away
I don't wanna come out stop ringing the bell
Well fuck it, I'm just a poet cursed by hell

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For the very first time
When you looked in my eyes
I saw the beauty
I saw the pain

For the very first time
When you hold my hand
I saw the scars
Spelling out your name

I fall in love
Couldn't help myself
I realised
You're the one for me

For the very first time
When I kissed your lips
I realised
You are my destiny

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Everytime
When the time was wrong
She told me
Things will be fine

Everytime
Everything was heavy
She hold my hand
And everything was fine

Everytime
I fought with her
She gave me food
And gave me smile

Everytime
She cared enough
Yet she felt it less
Her love is infinite

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5 o'clock alaram ringed the bell
Brush in the mouth, butt on the seat
Eat, sleep and go to school
We used to repeat

Tension was of homework
Not of earning money
Not of bringing food to home
Everyday was super sunny

Picked up the bag
Off for the school
Used to look like ass
Used to think we're super cool

Those were the days
The days are long gone
Memories still exists
Moments are now gone.

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