I wish I could burn myself down into ashes,
Touch the ground as if I never existed.
The survival journey of my life is taking turns,
The path which reflects where my ends meet.

The conjunction is with that wind,
That is never been felt.
The final destination is that land,
That will never ripe again.

The barren land and sorrows deep inside,
Make me feel drown in the darkest of mine.
It's a place where I never wish to be,
And yet it brings me greater false indeed.

I only want a minute to live,
And next minute to be rest.
Rest of all the odds shall disappear,
With a wind that can never whisper.

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Lost in a lane where I am lone again,
A lane where I never wanted to be,
A place that haunts me deep down,
Because it leave me snatched with scars.

Those scars never fade away,
That fear never goes away.
It's a place where silence is all they speak,
A language with no language in it.

It drains me off the cliff,
Where I intent to set myself free,
Free from the next moment that comes alive,
And me not reflecting or throwing a dice.

So let me free, Oh lord,
Into a sea where whispers of bubbles is all I hear,
Into a sky where breeze is all that soothes,
And into a barren land where nothing more I feel.

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See now.
The sky is also in tears.
The land has filled him up with the heat of vapours,
That seemed a curse for him.
He couldn't wait for the curse to break,
Until this time of the year.
And finally it did break him,
Enough that now,
It rested his soul and soothed his feelings,
Until tomorrow when the land will hit him again,.
With the same curse, forfeiting his soul.

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After years, I walked through that road again,
I could feel the same bubbles within myself,
I could feel that missing breeze in my veins,
After years, I wore that same smile again!

Yes! It was the time when I was thrilled with excitement,
Filled with love and happiness.
Now, when I walked through that way, I felt the same,
With the essence of love throughout it, again.

This time, the road was adorned with flowers,
It smelled like your scent,
It was lightened by your smile,
And it was filled with our memories.

That memory lane is where I wanted to be always,
I wish I could stay a little longer to feel more of it.
I felt every bit of yours and every breadth of ours,
I wish I could hold onto that feeling a bit longer into me!

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I don't know what do I want anymore.
There are thoughts running all around my mind.
Heart is completely numb.
If I say yes to something, it hurts.
If I say no to something, it hurts.
All I am filled with now is what I don't know.
I don't understand myself anymore.

I want to get rid of all these thoughts for once and for all.
I am regretting my every decision.
People are with me along with my decisions,
But I guess, I am the one whose not in any.

It's hard to figure out what's good for me or bad.
It's hard to get through things that don't matter now.
It's hard for me to come out of myself and take a break.
It's hard to look up and realise that all of it is my bad.

I don't know anything anymore about myself.
I am living everyday as a numb soul.
It's like walking through everyday without myself.
And living it in a way, that I don't want to understand anymore.

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Silence has its own language,
Where I don't have to express what's going on,
Where I don't have to act like anything's wrong,
And only thing I can do, is to stay strong.

Sometimes I feel words are easier.
But when it comes to let heart out,
Words become more heavy and difficult to explain,
As it's the pain running in my veins.

It may seem a day of laughter,
But the nights become more darker.
Sinking alone and screaming beneath,
Is what a night in silence mean.

I want these nights to be with me,
To shriek and whisper within myself.
I want every day to shine as nothing was every wrong,
To gather my heart and hush it again!

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Destiny

Every love story has an destination,
A destiny where both cheirsh being,
Strive to be in that space,
And fill their hearts in those moments.

My hand in yours, is the trust we built.
When I look into your eyes, I fall more deep.
I feel your heart, and listen to my name in beats.
When I see you smile, I see the entire world of me.

My destiny is to be where I am meant to be,
There in your heart, and in your arms,
In your beats and reason for all laughs.
I desire to be in a world, full of ours.

The road is filled with thorns of distances,
It's the path where I'll loose the whole of mine,
I shall loose every other things attached with me,
But still, I'll choose my destiny, that's being with You.

I have faith in me, to free myself into your breeze.
I believe that I am destined to be intact within a feel,
The feel that will bring me closest to you,
And be yours till eternity!

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It's hard to believe that I exist,
As whatever is left in me is You.
It's hard to find myself anymore,
As I have lost myself in You.

Thoughts of you and just you, storm in me,
Pulses of you and just you, beat in me.
I am puzzled where to hunt myself,
As I am full of you, being me.

I have lost my chance to meet myself,
I have made myself the worst of what I can,
I am struggling to get through you,
As you have drowned me that deep in You.

I want to get up, with no thoughts messing with my brains,
I want to spend a day, without any stress of you going away,
I want to get freed, for some air to breath,
I just want one moment, in which it's only ME!

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I live where no one talks,
I live where no one cares,
I live where life is just a damping pulses,
I have learnt how to live.

That silence of mind,
Could someday turn into silence of soul,
Where all that will be left behind is nothing,
And that life, I have to learn to live.

Nothing could make me happy,
Nothing could make me alone,
Nothing could be left as a feel,
And that's what I opt out to learn.

Silence can never turn into the fire in me,
Lonliness can never turn to the worst of me,
All the grounded feelings can never burst out,
Is what I need to learn before any burnts.

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I have been in the darkest nights,
Where it's just me and my blank mind.
I have craved for a single light to shine,
Where it's just me and a hope in my mind.

I seeked for help one day,
I asked someone to light up my way.
The light did shine to its brightest,
But leaved a shadow under its way.

That shadow caught the fear within me,
It dissolved the every peace present in me.
I tried to return where I was,
But something kept holding me back.

I was no more in a unit of darkness,
It had filled up in my veins.
Every pump of my heart now,
Had its pain all over it again.

Everything now seemed different,
As nothing was left in me.
I touched the ground just once,
And it had the whole of me!

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