I got pain I didn't even deserve,
In every aspect of my life!
But when I think about it now,
At least the pain* never left my side, it stayed!
Like a friend who never walks away,
Always hanging around,
In silence, in shadows, in every day?
Maybe it hurts,
But at least it's mine~
My pain,
My only friend who’s always on time :)

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The Eagerness to learn-

Hunger of knowledge keeps me up all night,
But with bare hands, I’m losing the fight.
Funny, ain’t it?
They sit in light and still speak of pain,
While I run after books in cold and rain?
I came with nothing, but still I try,
And they've it all—but just let it pass by.

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I don’t want pity or half-love!
See me fully, freely:
Special child, but not less.
My heart feels, breaks, laughs, and hopes too!
"I’m rare, and I’m whole."
If you’re out there, my soulmate, I’ll wait.
& when you arrive,
I’ll sit before you, open—
so you can come close, shove under me,
feel the tightness no one’s touched,
and know what I’ve saved for the one who truly sees me.
We’ll share our bodies and souls,
We’ll do more than just love,
and maybe, one day, become home.

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Toss and turn,
Toss and turn,
All night, I toss and turn!
But my mind just won't slow or run,
I, too, want to be normal and return,
But these thoughts: They never burn!
Still, I'm stern,
I will learn & learn!

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That One Shiny Girl—
It hurts, when you've so much love to give, but no one to give it to!
The world only sees the outer shell :)
They judge, they mock, they harass the beautiful soul*
& then, she becomes the witch, not the bitch?
"Because a witch was never evil,
That’s just what the world made her out to be!"
Gradually, She grows numb to the pains around her,
& dies alone, silently withering,
Still glowing, but unnoticed the star!

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You must be proud, right?
I think of you, I cry for you,
Everything I do:
“It’s you. Only you.”
But the loop never ends.
Just as I give my all to you,
There’s someone out there doing the same for me too!
Maybe it’s karma…
Or maybe just the limitless loop.

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"Spaces between us
Are proof enough that
I was the only one.
No wonder I always stand as none.
I'm stunned and numb,
I want to run—
Even if it's no fun."

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If his love is true, he'll notice even the slightest shift in your demeanor, much like the contrast between "The heavy monsoon rain and the sizzling hot tea in monsoon."
Choose wisely!

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I love him, even without Tomorrow :)

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My love for him runs so deep that
In his presence, my once wild,
Unpredictable nature,
psychotic personality melts away;
Becoming a submissive,
eager child, longing for
Her daddy's approval,
that I get mute!

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