I was making his favourite dishes
Was keeping his family entertained

When he was coming home late

He sold me in the trade
for freedom he said

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All that concealer can't hide the tan you're wearing
What will you say when they ask you where you've been

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I live with a man really big.
When he sits, the chair is on his mercy.
When he lies down, the bed shrinks.
Even his spacious room can’t hold him.
He seems to engulf everything.

When he brought me here
I feared division:
the bed,
the wardrobe,
the workstation.
But he stretched the space around me,
his bed extending magically.

He sits on his chair,
with me on his knee.
I become a weightless child
for him to play mercilessly.

When he eats, he finishes everything.
When we eat together, the food just vanishes.
He never eats separate from me,
He never lets me sleep separately.

When he is late he smiles,
Refreshed the moment he meets my eyes
He is so happy when he's back with me
Or am I the one happy and he just sees it?

He sleeps covering me,
chest to chest, chest to back.
Hides me like his secret calm
Or maybe he wants me to drown
In some dream, where I will save him
From insanity

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You are actually just on your own
Most times in your existence
Everything else is a deception
For you to not hate the world and kill yourself
Everyday in some fragments
You realise you are the last one standing

No one needs your support
And you don't need them
The sooner you realise this
The easier it becomes

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People are like hoaxes
who tolerate you as long as you follow them
A word of opposition
A flutter of contradiction
Can make you a bad person
And the constant disapprovals
Make you question
"Am I really a bad person?"

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Don’t know where I stand
Each day the next demand
I move without clear end
No clue which paths bend

If I say I’m unsure
Believe the words are pure
If I say I love you still
Don’t question my fragile will

I like wandering unknown spaces
That’s when our soul embraces
I call it wings, a fleeting rise
No compass, no fixed skies

I love enough to stay
Together we’ll shape our way
Choosing us above glitter today

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So many islands babe
We have so many destinations
And I do get lost sometimes
When I try to pursue you in between them
Cause you say something, without thinking
Without gazing in my soul
I feel broken each time you can't choose me
Over something insignificant you can't control
And I, I can't help but do
Choose you over everyone else
It's my stupid behaviour
To love and get into trouble for it
Cause when you are about to push me
I hold you like fear breeding on uncertainty
I am the most vulnerable
When I beg you to stay
And you stay

Cause you never intend to leave
I know your words mean nothing mostly
But I am brought up differently
Contemplating consequences before spewing acidity
Even when you are thrashing me
I am screaming how much I crave thee
But don't make me cry so much
That I drain all the love for you
Become that cute person again
The one who is with me in the kitchen
The one who stands up to his mother
The one who craves peace
And I'll just remember this
Like a discourse of learning we need

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He said its human
For beings to slip every now and then
They want to go right, but they go left
Cause they can’t help
but Kiss the fairy of destruction

They can’t help but desire
whatever’s forbidden
Just to feel how it feels
to hold a fire,
when the demon on the inside
reigns the outside

He said its human
to form bonds, outside of morality
And for a long time I accepted his lies
Till the time I was in the same situation
When I was away
Among others ready to sleep beside
But all I craved was you
Even after all this time
All I think about is you

Is it I’m not human?
Or am I more of it than you
Cause what you say is what animals do
Animals don’t care who they hurt in their hunger
Its the animal in you which makes you sway
And its the human in me which craves you anyway

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We are the best kept secret of this generation,
You’ll find us - not loud, but near the ones who’ve lost their configuration.
Of where to stop, and how to deny.
We show them how it’s done. Sad... they never learn it right.

We are the girls - taught to give
But learn to take away, our efforts... our pride...
From places of disdain.
They ignore us today, but tomorrow, they'll feign.
When there’s no body left, on the spot of our stain.

I work in the kitchen, work in office too.
Make your food.
Bring happiness... to you.
But it seems... you can’t give me anything of use.

My place -
Sometimes taken over by beings of your solitude.
If I’m too much for you
then maybe
you're not enough for me too.

Take all you can from me...
Because my service to you... is ending.
I can reclaim my thunder, once you're done tripping

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Wasting youth in the rooms of monotony; I keep wishing, “Let’s go” is what you’ll say next,
To anywhere red and passionate.

Your wild side comes out on distant lands,
All the truths and dares; feet on slipping sand.
Add colours in our periphery; We love a five star luxury.

Ready to give up everything, when you’re out wandering.
Your thoughts go wild with possibilities; it's scary, but I like you soaring free.

Here, you’re too disciplined,
Weekdays working, weekends hustling,
Barely making time for anything bright,
Lifting heavy weights, choosing consistency every time.

So I wait till you say “Let’s go,”; to pack and unpack in a new world.
Even if just for a few days, I love seeing us dawdle again.

In your freedom I find my wings,
The Kaleidoscope of your pictures is so stunning.
Let's book that next flight to Sikkim
Away from work that keeps us bothering.

Let’s be free, babe, let’s steal an evening,
Let’s dance and talk about everything
Like dreams we drain in the kitchen sink
It’s so easy with you, it’s frustrating.

Take my hand, forget the grind,
Leave the world and its rules behind.
Just say the word and I’ll follow through
“Let’s go" and I’ll be free with you.

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