It's been 15 years, since I last saw your face
Far too long, since I've felt your embrace
Not a day passes, without you on my mind
Since you left, my way, I've struggled to find
They say that it gets easier, clearly a fucking lie
I still sit and wonder, why it was you who had to die
You left me way too early, I was not prepared
To face this world without you, left me nervous and so very scared
I still rush when the phone rings, hoping it'll be you
Picking up and hearing, hey kid, I love you
Yet the phone never rings, my hero is gone
Only left with our memories, and our favorite songs
The void you have left, will never go away
If only we could go back to that one dreadful day
March eighteenth, two thousand and four
Terry Lee Tarr, my hero, was no more
Dad, I never had the chance to tell you goodbye
But a part of me went with you, on the day you had to die. 💔-
Make sure you're ready this time
To accept my crazy kinda love
The kind from the olden days
Sent from the heavens above
My open arms would greet you
As if a day never passed us by
If only you would come back
And stop me from questioning why...-
If losing is winning
I hope that you can see
That by losing you
I became the best me!
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How I was feeling
I was never able to be heard
The lack of communication
Was certainly absurd-
Goodbye is never easy
But today it must be done
I step into my future now
And feel I've already won!-
My words are real
The lines very raw
You'd understand more
If you've seen what I saw...-
Live your life and love what you do
Not many give a fuck except you!-
The sky is so very clear tonight
The stars in the sky shining bright
Looking out the window appears your face
I miss your arms, your hugs, your warm embrace
Have to put you there with the rest
That's the way it goes I guess...-
Friends who lie to deceive,
Friends you thought would never leave,
Family doesn't give a damn,
Nor does a good hearted man,
Just a gypsy girl dying inside,
With nowhere to run, nothing to hide.-
A rough draft of my poetry,
Blurred so you can't see,
A book is underway,
To be published someday!-