...but my mother always says;
you keep your heart on the sleeves
of your shirt, and give it away so
easily to anyone that befalls &
catches your eye...

are you really brave or simply foolish, to trust
anyone with your heart that is so fragile..?
And, I have nothing but always a
smile to give her as a response;
Because that is how I will know who is
actually willing to catch my falling
heart, keep it safe & also make it fly.

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दिल में चीजें रख के आखिर किसका भला होता है..
अक्सर जो जैसा है, उसको वैसा ही सामने परोसना
बेहतर होता है।

दिल से कलम, कलम से पन्नों तक का सफ़र सुहाना होता है,
क्यूंकि जो बातें बोल ना पाएं, उनका मलाल अक्सर
काफ़ी गेहरा होता है।

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..and earlier I used to think it is wise to hide
and bury the emotions that I feel..

but with time I realised that true wisdom is sitting and listening
whatever it is that my heart is feeling- let it cry, shriek, heal, & be free;
sometimes offer it a band-aid or two for the places where
the wounds are too deep and wide..

For who is going to do it for my heart if not me?
..as they say it will belong to my better half one day,
but I can't give it to him in that battered &
broken state, and it needs to pump a whole lot
of blood happily to keep me in a healthy state.

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They say you are the water, that comes in waves..
And I'm the Earth that greets each and every one of your pace..

Day & night we crash into each other;
testing & punishing so as to see who gives in control first..
But we only create the most beautiful hues in the sky of our love only when the sun hits its rays..

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Most often it's the battles within ourselves that could be won just
by a simple action of acceptance of things which are bothering us:
just as they are and nothing more or less;
as that is the only way of dissolving our problems & getting
ourselves out from our heads and into the present moment.

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...I used to run to the nearest kiosk, as soon
as something went wrong,you see.., to buy a
cigarette & a matchbox (I somehow always lose
them here & there & everywhere or just by
lending it to a friend) But not anymore..
I figured it's better to live through the pain, through
whatever it is that worries you, takes the peace
of your mind away. Instead of just letting it turn to
smoke, which literally does nothing for me.
Coz until I feel it all, it is forever going to remain
buried in me, & I have finally learned to drop the
baggage that makes me feel heavy, you know.

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and the biggest most recent regret
that I have been living with is the
present lifeless cluster of mass that
my entire self has become..

they say be the light, overcome darkness,
it's okay, things happen & people change..
But I also change with all the changes
that happens along the way..

How to be that old, lovely & bubbly self?
How to bring that chirpiness of my heart
back that filled my every cell with a blissful
energy, so I can be back to my synergy?

As they say life pushes you back before your
leaps, should I consider this another one of these?

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yes, all these feelings
clutched so tightly..
up in the attic of your heart.
I see them & I see you, clearly..
burdened by the weight of it all;
stopping you from living your best life.
So, I am here now, to help you
clean & throw them all out,
to make room for the both of us,
& to share a space,
that is full of only comfort & love,
and call it home.

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And there is this thing with wounds,
my dear...
you have to leave them as they are,
and not visit them again and again.

If you touch the pain points continuously,
they will forever remain green & alive.
Stop feeding it, and it will stop breathing
sorrow into you.

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पर सच कहूं तो..
अभी एक और हादसा ज़रूरी है,
मुझे मुझसे रूबरू होने के लिए।

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