I accept my defeat,
It took all of me to get to this,
I’ve put up fights with myself,
Fights with my thoughts and my brutal mind,
Of times when I needed you the most when you were all I’d miss,
Understanding all this was pure confusion,
Knowing I’ve got nowhere to start,
Knowing love got its kills,
Tearing apart heart from heart,
Clearly without any healing to it or any seals,
Being unable to heal from this trauma,
Barely being alive to even know how anything else feels,
Stood on my toes as I reached out to get a final grasp,
Held on for a brief but beautiful moment,
Realizing,
This was the last time we’d ever understand that this is real,
It was only a matter of time,
Before I slipped,
Falling far away from your reach,
Far from reality,from all the devouring love has caused,
To the ground on my feet where I learnt how to preach,
I’ve let this all go,
Learnt how to stop being a leech,
Learnt that you’ve found happiness,
Even if that’s six feet deep.

- Thishooman