Chahat

Mainu na chahiye tera pyaar, tera saath,
tere waade, teri baatein
Na chaahu mere hatho mein tera hath,
tera waqt, tere din na teri raatein
Mainu na dekhani wo teri nazar, teri ada,
teri muskaan ya teri hasi aate jaatein
Na chaahu tere uphaar, upkaar,
na kar nyochawar muzpe mehngi cheezein
Tu kabhi na samza muze kya chahiye
Tu kabhi na samza muze tu kyu chahiye
Meri chahat ko tune cheen liya,
Bs teri 'chahat' puri honi chahiye.

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Solace

In my darkest days, I still remember you
Your face is the first thing that comes to my mind
When I'm thrown in darkness,
Your voice lights up my spirits and gives me courage
Your memories of love and care is the only thing that supports me
You still become my stairs that helps me
to walk up from the ditch
So much time has passed but none can take your place
U aren't with me but ur memories never leaves me
You and within only you my heart find its solace...

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Just some people (part 3)

Early in my childhood, when we had cable tv connection,
Unwillingly v were forced to watch hindi serials as they were popular among aunties
And I always used to think-
does peopls like those female negative characters do really exist?
How can ruining someone's life cn b the only reason of their survival
How come their own entire existence doesn't hv any importance to them
without the female lead
I never believed it until now..
and now I think those characters are drawn inspiration from real people.

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Just some thoughts (part 4)

I had a habit of writing down whatever beautiful thoughts I used to read, on a big cardboard n hang them on the walls of my bedroom.

So in my schooldays this was another thought which was hung in my room for a long time-

'God helps those who helps themselves'

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"NO"

saying "NO"- WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY
is something I want to learn
Coz recently I have been replying NO as an answer to others requests
But immediately my mind gets filled with thoughts like-
I should hv helped them, it wasn't a big deal
I shouldnt hv said a NO, I shouldn't hv done that
What if I was in that place,I can cancel my plans for them
Am I the bad person for refusing?
I will b overthinking about that NO for a long time and
Sometimes I end up calling back and saying yes
Coz that NO wont leave my mind otherwise
But I really wanna stay away from people who constantly make me think
that m the bad person
Who makes me feel guilty even when m not at fault.
I hv reached upto a point that-
Now I want to become a bad person,
Say NO without feeling guilty
Shut my mind n don't think about them
Who don't even care about me
So I'm becoming a bad,rude, selfish person
n I don't care about anything anymore

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Just some people (part 2)

Last year I was forced to play holi by seniors
And I didn't like it much
So this year since I didnt hv my duty on holi
I just wanted to hide somewhere
To avoid being part of senior's holi celebration
I asked my colleague (who hd duty that day) to lie that m going out somewhre
She- why shld I? do the duty instead of me, so tht atleast I can celebrate with them
Me( who had plans of studying and
don't want to get coloured at work or on route)- No thanks
She- U don't enjoy urself, atleast let me go to the celebration n enjoy,
Just exchange duty
Me-u cn stil go aftr work
She-u dont want to play holi so do the duty
Me(thinking m I the bad person?)-no
I left to my friends home
Aftr I returned,I saw my bed, bedsheet n pillow filled with color
Me- who slept on my bed?
She- ohh, did it get coloured?I hd laid thre
Me (thinkng ur bed is next to me, why use my bed)-why
She- don't make a big deal
Me- but why
She- just b quiet, I said sorry
Me-last tym u used my face towel for cleaning ur study table n now this.
She(shouting)-this tym I wil wash up,ok? don't say anything,m not in mood
Me(feeling guilty n thinking is it wrong for me to ask why my bed got soiled)

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Just some thoughts (part 3)

Once I was in pg,It was replaced by this current thought
"Your small life is someone's big dream"
So value it, love it n live it.

Its from a kannada movie named "lucia",
A really great movie with an unexpected twist at end which rightly explains the above line.

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Just some thoughts (part 2)

When I went to college,
I replaced the first thought with another-
"You don't hv to be great to start
You have to start to be great. "

(I liked reading inspirational quotes/ thoughts , so the ones I liked, I used to write them on a carboard, color it, design it and hang them in my room, so that whenever I get up I read them)

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Just some thoughts-(part 1)

When I was small I had one thought written in my room-
"Dont do to others what you don't want others to do to you"
I used to daily read this and eventually I started following it, n till now I follow it ,
also the converse-
Do to others what you want others to do to you..

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Just some people(part 1)

I hv a colleague whom I wil never understand
V hv only one monthly sunday off
N I usually reserve them for washing my clothes,or cleaning my cupboards
Or just make some indoor plans,like watching anime or reading
I hate travelling or going outdoors n I prefer taking rest on off days
But today m told to do her part of duty coz she has to attain her friend's haldi,
Its not like she is requesting me
but she is ordering me saying
'Anyway u wil b staying at room so just do the work,
I hv some imprtant plans, which can't b avoided'
To which I replied- then you should hv thought it through
n exchanged duties beforehand
Her- anyways you wont hv any plans
why are you making a big deal out of it. U n ur washing clothes excuse
Me (angry at how she belittles my indoor plans) - u cant tel me at last moment when Its my rest day
She (shouting) - m requesting you to do it
(shouting 'requesting' doesn't imply request at all- its something which is asked politely with gratitude)
Me-if it was important u should hv thought about it before
n not put it on me at last moment
She (angrily shouting)- I don't want to listen to you, cant u help me
..
At the end m doing the duty

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