Hi..!!MathuMitha is my name,
If your here then our passions are same,
Coz' we fit into a writers frame...
Writing is unlike any game,
It does not require an aim,
You can simply your emotions exclaim,
Even when they sound lame,
Your restless mind you can tame,
And move towards being humane..!!

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As you embrace me slowly,
Wrapped in my insecurities & worries,
Caress my scars with warmth,
Cuddle along with my fears,
Hug them soft and tender,
As we loose ourselves to the moment.

- Mathumitha.R

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Maybe I seem to be too available,
Maybe I seem to be too carefree,
Maybe I seem to be too heartless,
Maybe I seem to be too selfish,
Maybe I seem to be too lost,
Maybe I seem to be too broken,
Maybe I seem,
Maybe, I may be,
Maybe, Be.

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Maybe at times,
We have so much to say,
Yet we choose,
Saying less!

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May be I seem like,
A piece of Charcoal to you,
Care to spend some time,
Put in some effort,
Till you see for yourself,
The Diamond that shines from within.

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Well slept with a decision in my head that I will wake up and execute the day with a plan!
But snoozed to wake up just a few minutes before only to rush into my room to connect.Had 2 classes today! Guess I kinda am starting to like this way of classes. Tho' I get distracted a lot yet this new thing thrills me. Had a not so fulfilling lunch! Had the appetite but not the interest. Finished watching the GOOD PLACE; planning to write a review soon! Rewatched a few episodes of FRIENDS. Today is Tanu's bday; wished her, could have called, dint feel like.Wrote 2 poems today! Had deep conversations with VJ,Anup & lalith who responded to what I wrote. It meant a lot to open up & talk. Its like experiencing the emotion naked, or just dumping it out. It gives me more liberating feel to let people (concerned friends)know the vulnerable side of me! I guess I am working on expressing it and still being strong about it. Cleaned my room partly bcoz I hate when people point out to me being dirty. Locked the door and DANCED for a some time.Walked today to around 2612 steps!Had a refreshing bath (after 2 days🤭)Post dinner rewatched WAKE UP SID.
Its time to make a bucket list I guess.
-Mathumitha.R

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Was just in the room randomly listening to songs;as the time went by.Mum sent me photos of childhood and Oh! How beautiful they were.Tears streamed, and I cried uncontrollably. I sulked at my fate of not being able to do anything!
I hate this! I wish mom was here!
I wish I could say please come back. I actually typed it too; But then realized that I need to value people's decision.I just cannot force my wish upon them!How I wish I had the power to set things right! Last evening I turned dowm lights and cried my heart out. I missed MA. I so do miss the times spent at HER feet! Then had to make dosas. I came out of the kitchen all sweaty. But while I made my 3 dosas and stacked them I realized how Ma never complained of eating the dosa cold! I just silently ate my dinner contemplating on this revelation. Listened to bhajans after a long time! May be I guess I missed the feeling of God, oh yeah! accidently it ia Ram Navami and guess what todays poem was to GOD! Ended up sleeping watching good place, and how it is a huge thing to get to the good place. I guess MOTHERS in the world no matter what atleast deserve a guest room at the goodplace atleast.
-Mathumitha.R

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Me On Call:

I miss hugging you! I love you man!

Inner Self Screaming:

Same here!
I love you!
I miss you hugging me.
I really miss the,
"Our Moments"
Its been long now.
Don't you think of me?

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