Literature doesn't erase my pain but it makes it bearable by giving it a voice. It shows me that my suffering, however deep, is not beyond expression, which in turn, allows me to accept its reality.

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ज़रा सब्र कर ऐ ज़िन्दगी
जख्मों को ज़रा भर जाने दे
किस बात की जल्दी भला
जब तेरे ही इशारों पर
मुलाज़िम हुँ मैं चला

मंज़िल तो दिखती है दूर
पर मंजिलों का क्या काम
हर पल तू ही मंजिल है
तेरे ही कदमों में
झुकता हूँ मैं
तु ज़िन्दगी है
तेरा गुलाम हूँ मैं

बस पल भर के लिए
धीमी कर दे रफ्तार
अपने वजूद को
ढूंढ लूँ मैं फिर से ज़रा
चलूंगा फिर तेरे ही इशारे पर
लेकिन ऐ ज़िन्दगी
ज़रा सब्र कर
जख्मों को ज़रा भर जाने दे
बस थोड़ी देर ठहर जा
बस यही मेरी पुकार

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I can feel it's grip
it touches me
and it disgusts me
I don't like it
I don't want it
get it away
I can't stand myself
around it.
Get it off my skin
IT'S NOT ME
it's it
it's in me
make it go away
stay away of it
kill it
it needs to go
I don't want it
any of it.

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यादों की महक से महकती
सुबह की अंगड़ाई हो तुम
और कभी कभी तो
दोपहर तक सताते हो
जज़बात कुछ ऐसे
जो बयान न कर सकूँ
तुम्हारी बातें, तुम्हारी आदतें
एक पुरी दास्तान हो तुम
फ़ासला बहुत है
मगर कभी कभी लगता
हाथ थामे पास ही बैठे हो
मुझे छेड़कर, हँस रहे हो तुम
जो नाराज़ हो रही
तो बाहों में लिपट लेते हो
हालांकि दोबारा
मेरी टांग खींचते हो
बड़े बदमाश जो ठहरे तुम
कुछ इस तरह तुम साथ हो
एक आस हो, एक अहसास
एक भरोसा हो तुम

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All these flaws
the imperfections
it's who I am
I'm human
I no longer hide
I am growing
quite wide open.

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The night grows darker every minute
the nightmares creep in & crawl on my skin
his disgusting touch, the chills down my spine
I feel it all over again & it feels too much real
the silence of the night adds to my paranoia
I close my eyes and try to fall asleep
but the fear of nightmares keep me wide awake.
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It's dawn, it's raining & it's still dark
I've calmed down yet I'm a little scared
but I know it's over & maybe I'll fall asleep
the day will be good & I'll be just fine
I am whispering beneath my blanket.
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I survived the day & the night is to come now
& perhaps with it the nightmares too
I don't know how I'll deal with it but I'll have to
it happened before and I lived through it
I wish it was easy because it happened before
but it's not and that's okay, I'll be okay
they will stop in a few days and I'll be fine.

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behind me, one step at a time,
the next moment, two at a time;
I looked back, the breeze
diffused the smell of awful blood,
she sat down on the 6th stair,
her eyeballs rolled down the stairs,
she crawled towards them, picked
them up & ate her left eyeball,
I shivered and screamed, she
looked back, pierced the right
eyeball with her long nails, I stopped
screaming when I saw her face...
She was me without the eyeballs

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सुनो तुम, मैं एक निर्भया हूँ
सहिष्णु सीता नहीं, मैं माँ चंडी हूँ
अग्निपरीक्षा की मोहताज नहीं
मैं स्वयं तप्त अग्नि की ज्वाला हूँ

पवित्र शरीर की दाह दूँगी मैं
फल तुम्हारे हवस का सहूँगी मैं
माफ करना, सहनशिल नहीं
महाकाली की वह रौद्र रूप हूँ मैं

वध करने तुम्हारा मैं आई हूँ
देवी छिन्नमस्तिका को पूजती हूँ
है सिंदूर की मुझे ज़रूरत नहीं
मैं तो रक्त अभिषेक की योग्य हूँ

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Initial scantling sunshine
from the casement,
warming her lips enforced
him to wish a morning kiss;
slushy lips fondling &
cuddling, grabbing her waist
he came closer, the aroma
of dainty peach blossom
inflated levels of oxytocin,
fingers teasing her points
& lips rinsing her joints,
reciting vowels with pleasure
she awakened his man,
fresh vigour of daybreak
intensified the soft romance;
his erect erotic pushes
rhyming with her moans,
her accent pleading him to stop,
eyes imparting desires atop;
they started their Lord's day
with the pleasance of
bracing tonic of love making

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फेफड़ा तेरा ले लेगी
जान तेरी ले लेगी
सपना तेरा ले लेगी
ओ सिगरेट तेरी....
ओ सिगरेट तेरी....
ओ सिगरेट तेरी ले लेगी
तू लिख के ले ले
ओ सिगरेट तेरी ले लेगी
तू लिख के ले ले

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