I was slipping again
but I didn't want to,
I tried to cling
to the happy memories,
I talked, I read,
I played, I watched TV,
I took the aid of
humor and sarcasm,
nevertheless
futile attempts they were.
"Close your eyes
for a minute more"
"just one more
and it would stop"
I kept whispering
to myself,
"please fall asleep."
Ragged breathing
& trembling hands,
it was happening again,
I was terrified,
it was all dark,
it was very lonely,
"it'll stop, I've to stop",
I kept repeating.
Water, I wanted to
drink some water
but I couldn't move,
like I was paralysed.
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