They didn't know
I was going through a 1000 tornadoes
Swirling through my head
All at once.
They thought,
The laughter, the giggles and the smiles
Were of the happiness and joy
That God has been showering me with.
As they think of me,
Being happy all the time,
I think of ripping myself apart
Piece by piece
When pain isn't pain anymore.
I think of running in a speed
Until my feet rips off
Until my bones break
And until my soul leaves my body behind.
That's how I feel on the inside
As you see me giggle.
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