I look for a reason in the rain, meaning in the puddles gathered 'round my feet. I hear the hushed whispers of mistakes from my past on the breath of the wind, echoes of my regrets. Like a shadow, they suffocate me, beating at my bare bones, as the rain does. I can feel the cold seeping inside, under my skin, festering and angry.

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I wish to melt away with the bitter rain.
Flee, and let the storm remain.
Thunder, lightning, all in vain,
For it can't wash away my pain...

I wish to dance inside the vicious flames.
I beg the embers hide my shame.
Invite them in my scorching veins...
But still they cannot break these chains...

I wish to dissipate into the ground.
Hold my breath and hope I drown.
If I struggle, hold me down,
Until my heart ceases to pound...

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How am I supposed to breathe when I can't inhale what I won't believe?
Lungs burning...
I was left breathless on your day of death.

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And how am I supposed to live when I can't accept what I won't forgive?
Eyes burning...
You were left breathless; Life taken; A theft.

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1. I'm a perfectionist. Or am I?
2. I'm a vegetarian. Or am I not?
3. I want to be a psychologist. Or do I?

Can you guess which one is a lie?

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You painted my virgin lips with bold, colorful lies at such a tender age that, now, expecting to feast on the passion of my lovers' lips, I taste only suspicion...
The bitter tartness of deception lingering on my tongue like an unsated aftertaste...

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If the Earth became as withered and cracked as the hottest desert, I would bleed myself dry so that you might have the strength to go on...

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A Series Of Unfortunate Events...

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Words, for I speak truly when I address you.
Don't challenge my love, for I would disregard my own needs, if that meant satisfying yours.
Don't challenge my loyalty, for my body only yearns for one.
Don't challenge my dedication, for why waste effort on someone I see no future with?
Don't challenge my heart, for one day, I may decide it is too much, and walk away, leaving you to your thoughts.
And you will finally see all the things that you were blinded to before...

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For attempting to ease the constant throbbing of my heavy soul; for trying to relight the dark corridors of my long empty heart; for your persistent searching of why I feel so dead inside, though it is evident I am filled with the breath of life. However, I fear this ache comes from an injury deep within my bones, that no
mortal man can heal with neither
pills, nor elixir. Though, ironically, it was a mortal man
that inflicted such damage...

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It is unknown to me rather you
want your space, or wish to share
mine with me. In which case, I will
give up the war, forfeit the battle,
and wave my white flag in surrender...
If it all meant my wounds would
be healed by your touch...

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