Now that I’ve tasted what it’s like to live with you,
Without you, I live, but flavours fade to blue🌻

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If January me talked to December me, she would not believe how this year turned out 🌻

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A new me....🌻

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Be strong
Be strong
Be strong

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Purpose

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I had forgotten how beautiful the evenings are.

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Breaking patterns

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“Run, I said to myself. Run until your lungs collapse, until the wind whips and snaps at your tattered clothes, until you are a blur that blends into the background. Run, run faster, run until your bones break and your shins split and your muscles atrophy and your heart dies because it was always too big for your chest and it beat too fast for too long and run. Run run run run until you can't hear their feet behind you. Run until they drop their fists and their shouts dissolve in the air. Run with your eyes open and your mouth shut and dam the river rushing up behind your eyes. Run. Run until you drop dead. Make sure your heart stops before they ever reach you. Before they ever touch you. Run I said.”
#shatterme

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On the darkest days you have to search for a spot of warmth; on the bleakest days you have to keep your eyes onward and upward and on the saddest days you have to leave them open to let them cry. To then let them dry. To give them a chance to wash out the pain in order to see fresh and clear again. Nothing in this life will ever make sense to me but I can’t help but try to collect the change and hope it's enough to pay for our mistakes.
#shatterme

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I stop. I stand still, I close my eyes and try to remember a world beyond these walls. I wonder what it would be like to know that I'm not dreaming, that this isolated existence is not caged within my own mind. I do wonder, I think about it all the time. What it would be like to kill myself. Because I never really know, I still can't tell the difference, I'm never quite certain whether or not I'm actually alive. So I sit here. I sit here every single day.
#shatterme

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