My tears carry the love
From my heart;
Evaporates it out into the air
And leaves a void.
It makes me realize-
'Something isn't always better than nothing'
That emptiness is better than pain.
I know it has taken a lot of time
But I am glad it's not a lifetime.
I am on my way
And the distance isn't that long.
Each day
I love you a little lesser
Each teardrops
A step closer to my salvation.
Each day
I love you a lot lesser.

-Jumbin

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Even though we have the same sky
To gaze at the stars and the moon;
When I look up
The clouds take over
And when you do
I sigh and look away.

Timing has never really been our strength.

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Thats' all you have become-
A thought, a dream and a prayer.

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You have begun to feel
Like the old house
Where I spent my childhood.
A part of memory
That brings along myriad of emotions-
Of love laughter and farewell.
A feeling that makes me want to go back
To a place that now remains empty.
A thought, a smile and a longing
To be where I always thought I belonged.
Life has come a long way since then
But like that old house
You still find your way into my dreams
Like that old house
You still feel like home.

-Jumbin

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Memories seeping through the hazy past,
Like it was some dream I woke up from.
Against the life's dimming light
I have begun to see you in silhouette-
Your eyes
Your smile
Your voice
And everything that mattered;
All stolen
And perhaps burnt.
I wonder-
Has it really been that long?

When I am not even done
You seem to be fading away;
Like the ink from an old diary.

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For so long
Life's been on a move
Yet I still was where we were.
A life led in between the present and the past;
Swinging like a clock - round and round.
Only the years had gone;
With the sweeping tides of time.
It all made one wonder-
How could someone so transient be so constant?
For so long
Life'd been either a chase
Or an escape.
But
For a while now,
Life seems to have found an anchor,
To stay afloat and breathe;
To look at the horizon and smile.
For a while now,
I have a feeling
That finally love will find a home.

-Jumbin

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As I look out of the window
From this moving bus,
My thoughts caught up with you.
Did you eat?
Did you take that trip you said you wanted to take the last time we met?
Did you think of me ever?
Sometimes I wish
We could build a wall
To contain our thoughts.
Sometimes I wish
We could love
And simply forget.

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I missed you,
So much that I painted
The memories of you
Maybe a little too bright;
That over the years
The line got blurred
Of what was you
And what I made of you.
Like the moon
You were never far away
And from a distant
I began to love you just as much.
I'd have lived through this life
And a hundred more,
With that kind of love.
But now,
As you sit beside me,
I see a stranger.
I see a person
I could no longer love.
If only we'd not crossed paths again.
I cried that day.
I mourned the end
Of my beautiful lie.

-Jumbin

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I dreamed about him
Two nights in a row.

First night
I was in his town
I called him up
But the call won't get through.
I knew the address
But nobody'd take me there.
And I was in a hurry
I had a flight to catch.
Like my feet were tied
I stood there helplessly.
I could see him at a distant
But we could never meet.
I had to leave.
My heart ached.

Second Night
I was in his town again.
This time too
He was as distant as the sky
Yet so close I could almost smell him.
Before we could meet,
I lost my way.
I struggled to get out of the maze
But fell deeper.
I could not come out of it.
This time
He left.
My heart ached.

I dreamed about him
Two nights in a row.
-Jumbin

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I am gaurding my pain
Like a mother protects a child.
I do not want the time
To snatch it away
Nor do I want love
To heal it with kindness.
So I write of you
And I embellish my suffering
With the choicest of words.
I need to confess
I want sadness to look pretty.

My pain is precious.
It is the only thing
I have from you.

-Jumbin

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