The roads are almost invisible. Even my car hesitated to start. Wish I had stayed home a little longer, had a second cup of coffee, just enough time to buy for the foggy skies to clear. But my restless heart told me yet again, to just take a chance. So here I am, slowly making my way to work, on a less than ordinary morning. Patience has become a lost virtue.

As I get on to work, the chain of thoughts continues. Which one I like more? A foggy sky that reminds me of Delhi or the blue sky of Little Rock, I wonder. Am I truly living in this moment or am I hung in time between then and now, like a piece of art in a museum, from centuries ago? I see three abrasion marks on my left wrist, each a cm long and parallel to the other, screaming of their existence and I’m surprised where they came from. My memory fails.

Today is gone, tomorrow is as uncertain as the number of times I will wake up tonight, sweaty and anxious. The clock tells me it’s time to sleep. I wonder who is more helpless? The clock ticking away, having no time to stop or a mind that knows how to stop but doesn’t. I retire to bed wondering.

Next morning, another year has passed…

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We lost each other like
we had never been together.
Our separation wasn't marked in time
but inside our hearts,
which knew it was inevitable and coming,
sooner or later.

We lost each other like we had never found 'us',
to know we would drift apart.

Acceptance took the drama away
and we lost each other
like strangers do
on cross roads
or railway platforms,
unaware and untouched.

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I would've been glad
had you been a
problem I could fix.

But the thing is,
you happen to be
the only solution,
to all my problems.

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And, after all this while
of us being together,
I am still looking for a road,
that would lead me to you.

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I don't want a freedom
where you indeed give me wings,
but to fly, only in your own sky.

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Setbacks and difficulties in life are opportunities to acquire newer traits.
Traits that help us survive and emerge
stronger, more resilient. Only those who continue carrying on unyielding, win the race. The others simply wither off, with time.

Because 'Evolution' is but a choice to be made, after all.

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to not overthink about things not under my control. The pain may seem never ending, but life is longer than that. And to be able to know what more life has, one has to keep moving.

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Ever seen a bottle
with the lid on
and so full that
you couldn't make out
if it was completely empty
or full to the brim,
till you opened it
or perhaps lifted it,
to feel the weight?

Depression gives you
a similar feeling.
You don't know if you are
more empty of happiness or
filled with sadness to the brim.

You just know that
there's something
weighing you down,
every single moment.

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waking up to a world
where compassion would
rule the hearts of all
and hatred would sit
locked down
in the pages of history.

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Sometimes, it shuts itself away
like an irritated child
who's denied a long sought toy;
at others,
it slowly fills your senses
like the wafting aroma
of your favourite coffee;
and yet sometimes,
it engulfs you like a flooding river
determined to wash away all
that comes its way.

The fact that it doesn't have
one set size and form
is what makes it
so much and
very much,
love.

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