And then I happened to receive a brought dead case last night, by the police.

He smiled as he entered, looking at me, I smiled back. (Recalling an incident)
"Oh ma'm it's you on shift?"
He exclaimed. On replying Yes, :) I sent him for the Registration.

He came back telling, registration done. And it's done RIGHT this time. ( Recalling there was a gender discrepancy in the registration last time. )

He laughed, telling, "Else, you would stay up until next day afternoon, without even going home, and make sure the gender correction is done, like, the last time. 😅 So I thought, It's better I register the details correctly now."
He stated.

I laughed back :) Realising, to get things done, you can request, you can assert, you can also Order !
But the best way out is, making the other person "want" to do it, which happened here.

#JustWorkThings.💜

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A few realisations, of late.
True that, people say, Hope for the best. Stay hopeful. But, not very true.

It's this faint hope that made me tell "Alright I'll see you tomorrow broooo! :)" To a staff nurse before leaving. Only to realise, there's no need to even come next day 'cuz i lost my loved one.

It's this faint hope that voiced. " CKD. so no cannulation on that limb please." When the doctor tried to cannulate him, in a life saving situation. Although, for a fact, when i already knew dialysis isn't practically possible. Still being hopeful about dialysis.

This faint hope. That made my patient's bystander utter. "He's too young to pass away. I hoped he would pull through" today. And i blinked in utter helplessness.

Probably, Hope isn't always a nice thing to be have, while being pessimistic at times. Actually helps.

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I was just thinking about my parents. Kinda lost in thoughts a bit. Focusing on my breath, Grateful to be alive.
And it made me realise, how all of us are not completely "just one thing."

We are made of water and air. We are both our mother and father. ( You like it, or not. )
We are both, the first person we loved and the last person we gave upon. We are both our dreams and our nightmares. We are both our strengths and our insecurities. We are both our courage, and our silent fears. We are both understanding, also a mess to handle. We are both who we want to be, and who we get to be. And it's completely okay! To not be one thing.

I believe, we all are dual natured that way.
How we yearn for love, but also for our own space.
How we say, "I'm okie" but also wish for "No, you are not" in response.
How we say, "okie, bye!" and silently expect the other person
to be a little more patient and hold on.

The point is, why are we so comfortable
with showcasing our strengths,
while, afraid of being vulnerable. It's okie.

So, the next time you feel a certain way.
Forget not, I'm still here, holding on.

Smile! :)
This is a safe space.💜

Love. Light. Abundance. 🤗

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And till date, despite all the discussions,

This question haunts me.

Was I so easy to Give Upon ?!

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There no self hatred when you are the only one that matters to you and you being successful is why the mitochondria in you are creating energy for.. Why your cells are aligned in a way to make organs working in a synchrony.. Together.. In a harmony.. Just so that you stand up.. By yourself.. For yourself.. They know the WHY. IT'S ONLY YOU WHO NEEDS TO KNOW.

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As the nurse called the next patient to walk in.
I see a familiar face. This patient whom i had seen about a month prior, when he was battling this terrible Covid.

I said. "Ohh good to see you today ! Better ??! "

He smiled and told, "ohhh Good morning doctor. Yes! You have healing hands.

So, what brings you here today !

"Nothing much doctor. On having heard you would show up today, I just came to see you one more time and thank you for that kind gesture that day

Who would give upon consultation fees doctor ? And when asked for it you replied, "No. This is a follow up, be it even after 2 weeks. It still is. GIVE IT TO THE HUNGRY."
THE FIRST DOCTOR WHO EVER SAID THAT IN MY LIFE TIME OF 48 YEARS.

I blinked my eyes tight and tilted my neck sideways, saying. "Oh thank you Sir. I'm humbled.

So this is the copy of where i donated your fees for the hungry. I did what you wanted me to do doc."

"I don't need proofs Sir. I exclaimed.

If I may ask, Are you married doc ? He asked.
I laughed. Not yet. I replied.
"Lucky is that guy. He exclaimed as he leaves the room.
I smiled, later waiving off his consultative fees as he didn't come with any illness. :)

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Once in a while you will come across this woman in life !
Who fears she would be a burden for you.
Who is used to pick herself up when she falls.
Who doesn't want anyone to worry for her. And says often "Don't worry for me. I'll handle it !"

That's not her over confidence or head weight talking.
So rather than walking away.
Why not Just be and say !
"I know you would handle. But I CAN HELP. 🤗"

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And then there are few guys. Those who offer a seat to that grand mother, in the metro!
Those guys who wait at the crossing letting that kid cross the road
Those guys who stay very protective towards their sisters
Those guys who do not forget parents after being married. Yes. One needs to be family concerned
Those guys who do not frame opinions on hearing someone speak indecent about his female friend. Rather chooses to ignore, like it doesn't matter
Those guys who do not laugh seeing the stain on her skirt rather ask her to get some rest. And do the needful
Those guys who do not mock her, if her dresses get loose and kinda look not very decent. Rather let her know politely, and subtly.
I still remember this man who did this to me in 2018. Blessed be you dude. Where ever you are!
Those guys who bear, her Pre menstrual mood swings and do not react when she loses her calm
Those guys who stay on a call all throughout the journey, tracking the ride, while their female friends are traveling in the cab, late night.
Those guys who avoid certain conversations which would make her feel uncomfortable.
Those guys who act out of Humanity. Maturity and Decency.
The world needs more of YOU.

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Just like how one have the McNaughton Rule, females must have, PMS rule.
Period. 😑

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I somehow love the sea, and the waves that it brings.

'Cuz everytime, these waves leave the shore. They always come back. 💜
Never meant to depart.

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