This girl right here..will hopelessly search for you everywhere.

But you?

Would you even care? Do you even think about me? Why are you occupying my heart when I mean nothing to you.

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It's okay to be afraid rather than grieving later??

Okay yes I was angry so I grieved later so what?! You did have the control, you still could have confessed which would have allowed me to let go of all this and reconnect. But for you it's the end already and your ego was big so you didn't.

But man you are so delusional that you think I'm the one who ended it and posted quotes like it's hard for you to come to terms that it's an end.

Seriously?

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I will say why you came back to me in 2020.

You thought it would be end of the world; let me at least try harshini. After all, she is so easy and she is always there.

I don't even have to try harder. She is so damn easy.

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Yes I am repeating the same hurtful things again and again.

Guess what? I will..until I find the goddamn peace you always mention.

At least if I take it all out here, I may not be repeating the same thing inside my mind right?

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If I had not met you, I would be happily married to a nice family oriented guy who is devoted to me and only me. I would have had a baby at least one year old. I missed out on many things just for one person??

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I have huge respect for the kind of person you are.

So I will ogle at you, make you feel insecure by flirting with other girls/ talking about their body and ignore you. I do not care if you are there. No, for me, you are not the only person in the room.

I am not even conscious of myself around you but I love you beyond infinity.

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What love beyond infinity?

Which hearts are united even before birth?

Who is all your happiness?

Who am I for you to think how what you do or say would affect me?

How can I be happy always??

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Live with love and peace?

I was so full of it before you came in to my life. I was at least having half of it when you came in once again.

Do you know how it feels like to be always treated like an object which doesn't deserve love? This object is only valued when it can be of use.

Even my parents love me because I'm their daughter. I do not know what's unconditional in this world except for my love.

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Some people love the idea of being with you; not you.

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I thought you would still love me even if I cannot give you all the happiness in the world so I wanted to push you away as much as I can till the point of no return JUST BECAUSE I WANTED YOU TO BE HAPPY but when you treated me like I'm nothing in front of your ego/your best friend; I just cannot help but realise how blind I was.

Why did I overthink so much for someone who would have easily run away if I had just said I doubt I may not fulfill your expectations?

I was willing to put myself back into the same fire when you would have never ever thought twice to throw me into, once you had the slightest knowing that I would be of no use to you.

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