You dont know whats wrong with you..You realise it that life is changed ... A hole...a never ending emptiness..a guilt... and the nights of playing different scenarios in your mind that had u been a bit mature things would have been different...you go there ...and find a grave...silent as a grave should be...u remember the day when u washed and shrouded him...and how lifeless he felt...how....heart wrecking it was...u think and think and think until it starts slowly swallowing ur mental stability...you feel a pain...everywhere..but mostly in the heart and in the back...ur back is fine...yet it is broken...broken beyond repair...These are the things U feel everyday when u become ..fatherless and it makes U aimless, worthless, powerless, heartless and helpless....and the people around you would do nothing ...they wont feel your pain...and when u tell them how painful it is...they will bring about a story of their pain...and u realise that u have to live with this pain...keep it sealed...and let it choke u slowly to the same end....
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