So we gave up. I'd finally had enough of chasing after a ghost who did not want to be discovered. We'd failed, maybe, but some mysteries aren't meant to be solved. I still did not know her as I wanted to, but I never could.
She made it impossible for me. And the accicide, the student, would never be anything else, and I was left to ask, Did I help you toward a fate you didn't want, Alaska, or did I assist your wilful self-destruction? Because they are different crimes, and I don't know wheter to feel angry at her for making me part of her suicide or just to feel angry at myself for letting her go...

"Looking For Alaska"
-John Green

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What is an "instant" death anyway? How long is an instant? Is it one second? Ten? The pain of those seconds must have been awful as her heart burst and her lungs collapsed and there was no air and no blood to her brain and only raw panic. What the hell is an instant? Nothing is instant. Instant rice takes five minutes, instant pudding an hour. I doubt that an instant of blinding pain feels particularly instantaneous.

"Looking For Alaska"
-John Green

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I don't know if I'll have the time to write anymore letters because I might be too busy trying to participate, so, if this does end up being the last letter, I just wanted you to know that I was in bad place before I started high school and you helped me, Even if you didn't know what I was talking about, I know there are people who say all these things don't happen and there are people who forget what it's like to be 16 when they turn 17.
I know these will all be stories someday and our pictures will become old photographs, and we'll all become someone's mom and dad.
But right now these moments aren't stories, this is happening, I am here and I'm looking at her,and she's so beautiful.. I can see it. This one moment when you realize you're not a sad story, you're alive. And you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder when you were listening to that song, on that drive with people you love most in this world.
And in this moment, I swear, we're infinite.

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Tan-gents have been called so,
since they point out towards a
single direction.

Had they been called Tan-ladies,
they would have been
multidirectionally confused.

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If you aren't a destination,
I'll be a traveller forever.

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You came as a small sign of light,
When I was lost in the dark,
Little did I know, fireflies don't live for long.

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You set your eyes on an abandoned flower,
Wanting to get a whiff of the sweet aroma,
You wish to own it as if it was something
you ever desired,
And when you have it,
You give it away, leaving it to dry and die,
To own someone else..

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Trying to find love at the
wrong places is like a flower
trying to bloom on the chest
of a motherboard, feeding
on flickering electricity,
enduring pollen grains into
million codes of binary and
expecting photosynthesis.

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After their breakup
To sort differences
She installed Tinder
He, PUBG.

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Horoscopes matched,
Hearts didn't.
Bodies got married,
Souls didn't!

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