Sometimes, I am so tired being alive,
I tried to do good,
I tried to love,
I tried the best thing I could,
Not a single love I get,
Not a single smile I get,
Not a single sweetness I get,
I am human, I have feelings,
I want to be loved,
I want to be wanted,
What if I have someone like me to treat me right  for once like I treat the one I love?
It would be lovely,
It would be heaven,
But it always hell for me,
I am always become the black swan.

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You forget for a while...
Your pain, your heartbroken,
You forget for a while...
Your tears, your sadness,
You forget for a while...
Your darkness, your demon,
When you fall in love.
I forget for a while...
That I am your...
PERFECT IMPERFECTION.

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I miss you a lot,
but I know our story has ended.
I have to ignore my feeling.
I have to close the page and write a new one.
All I have now is scars of the sweetest memories.

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Jangan pernah melupakan budi baik seseorang kepadamu.
Uang tidak akan sanggup membayarnya.
Hutang budi adalah hutang seumur hidup.
Jika kamu tidak dapat membalasnya ketika kamu hidup, maka nanti kerabatmu yang akan membayarnya.
Lingkaran kehidupan ditentukan oleh waktu, uang tidak dapat membeli waktu.
Budi baik-mu akan terlihat nanti ketika jantungmu tak berdetak lagi.
Budi baik-mu akan terlihat nanti disaat orang-orang datang untuk melihatmu terakhir kalinya dan berbagi cerita tentang kamu disaat napasmu masih berhembus.

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To love is never instant
To be in love is never easy
To fall in love needs more than words
To stay in love needs effort
Forever is too long
Never is impossible
Promises are not priorities
Time is unstopable
Relationship is univitable
Happiness is temporary
Sadness is not an enemy
The past is a lesson
The future is a plan
Life is cherishtable
To stay alive is a progress
Death is the final gift

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I need the warmth of your body when I sleep on your arm,
I need to listen to your heart beat when I lay down my head on your chest,
I need to touch your skin to calm myself,
I need your fragrance when I become anxious,
I need your smile, your anger, your best, your worst,

I NEED YOU!!

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New year doesn't make me excited, doesn't make me happy in the crowd and feel that there's something special to celebrate.
It makes me anxious, worry and mentally exhausted because those people that I love will keep moving on with their plans in life and I do feel like being left mentally and physically untill the only person that stays with me is my self

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23 years of togetherness,
22 years through the good and the bad,
Through the worst and the best,
Still many more years ahead,
May this journey be forever ours.

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Why do my heart bursts in jealousy when I know that I am not supposed to be jealous

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Trust nobody
Even your loved one
Trust nobody
Even your closest one
Trust nobody
Even your soulmate
If you can betray yourself
If you can betray your own words
If you can erase your own promises
Nothing in this world can trust you
No matter how good you are— % &

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