made sure you can rely on me,
when you were still there.

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The night is awake.

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12:45a.m.

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I like desperation.

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I don't have friends. I don't socialize. I talk nice all rational dressed up joke. I stare at people pulling up the distance between us. All on their pride. Hail me down, step over me with your words of bravery. All on for boundaries, I can't outrun. Got a crown made of mockery. I'm so average. I'm your child, you put me through blame game. Despise how I breathe. Congratulations. My existence cease to exist in me. I'm the doll made of tragic, my castle is haunted with all my blunt emotions. Sugar, what a human you're. You been nice like my face, stage all set, can you act better. You understand to compare, down till my brick's crack out of my own castle. One by one. Mental health in verse, discerning shade things not worth striving for. You do. Swim through your own world, scroll down the pages you hold. What is the joke ? Like you ever paid dollar bills to call someone family at 2am.

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Words stumble out in vein.
How makes life so tragic
With two faces all around.

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one new text message, thinking how shades of sky down the winter broke my heart.

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On anxiety I'm tripping.

Skipping meals on repeat.

High, you'll need me.

You'll judge me.

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The night is windy. It's a little cold.

She'd take polaroid pictures.

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Stars twinkle.
Aged together with wrinkles.
I loved you.
You loved me.

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