"The guy proposes a girl and she accepts his proposal in one go" is what I have grown up seeing on movie screens.
No! It doesn't always happen. That's reel life. In real life there is a strange fear of listening a 'no' in reply from the person you honestly love that sometimes you never put a proposal before. You hide it. Don't you? You decide to remain mum. Though you keep loving her. Yaa! you do.
Have ever you thought! This kind of fear inside is somewhere the purest feeling of love that one can have for you.
And here I am who is still daydreaming that one day, a day will arrive when I will be earning enough that I could take her responsibility so that I propose her. The same girl whom I never proposed just because of that fear. Hey almighty can I ask you for something?
Give me guts! to tell her that how endlessly I love her.
But again I end up fearing.-
Tumse ziddi to tumhara khayal hai,
kambhaqt ek baar aa jaye to jane ka
naam hi nahi leta.-
Sach kahu?
Mohobbat to pehle hi ho gayi thi
tumhari baaton se.
Chehre ka kya hai, wo to bss ek zariya
tha mujhe tumse milane ka.-
She is a mystery.
A mystery unrevealed.
The more I try to know her the more she
turns into mysterious.-
When I miss you, I look at your pictures in my phone's gallery and smile like
an idiot, silly I am. Do you do?
While listening a romantic track, I imagine you there in each one of the lyrics
as if I am dedicating it for you. Do you do?
Sorry! babes, I can't cook non veg na but whenever I make maggi, sandwich or any dish that I know to cook in the kitchen, I think of sharing it with you. Do you do?
When I don't catch you online, I look for those of your old texts where you had mentioned me saying "I love you". Do you do?
Whenever you change your whatsapp dp, I never miss it to move it in an another folder named yours. Do you do?
During a fight with you if I say "I will not talk to you ever", the truth is I lie. In
fact I desire you more. Do you do?
When I see any other guy being too touchy with you or too flirty with you, No
I don't become over possessive but yea I feel a little jelous. Do you do?
Whenever I get over angry on you, you know I regret it later feeling unsound. Do you do?
When I look at a lovely couple getting married while attending a marriage,
I dream of you as my bride destined. Do you do?
When I say "I love you", I mean it undoubtedly. Do you do?-
"But I loved you, I love you even right now", it wasn't the last message I typed.
There was a lot more to say.
As I was about to send it, she blocked me.
Few months before :
"May be you deserve someone better", she said.
"May be not", I denied.
"Look yourself through my eyes. Can you? Nahh! you can't. And you know what there it makes the whole difference", I replied.
Why I would have talked to her if I deserved someone better? Little did she know that she was the best. One second! she's still best. Forget about finding better.-
The sound of writing is screaming
that how much I love you.
But everytime you acted like dumb
as you can't hear it.-
"Amm... can we?", I murmured.
"What we?", she asked.
"Can we hug once?", I said.
"Will you even ask me before hugging.
Dude! really?", she laughed.
How dumb I was at that time, I think it
sometimes.
#Shy-
Why it is not "I love you"?
Why it has become "I love you but
as a friend" nowadays?-
One more phantasy dudess, at 3 am :
You and I, a long distance relationship
where the love between us never
fade. My headphones are on and
I ask you to plug in your earphones.
Same romantic track at a low volume
and we fall in love again listening. Ahh!
such feel.
"Dil diyan gallan, karange naal naal..."-