How does anxiety feel like..
Your hands and feet starts getting cold..
You start shivering,not physically but inside you everything is shaking..
You struggle to breathe..
You start taking heavy breaths..
Your heart starts running..as if it is about to burst..
Your body becomes lethargic..
You feel numbness..
You become so unconscious that you don't understand what's happening around you...
You feel like your soul is leaving your body..
Your body starts aching..
Your head starts aching..
You feel pain in every bone of yours..
And then for hours don't feel your body..
You can't walk..
You can't talk..
You feel dizzy..
You feel weak..
You can't pull yourself up..
Your lungs start paining as if you forced them to work..
After struggling for hours you become normal..
Just that..

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Tell me are you okay..happy?
How does it feel to make somebody feel crappy?
Ask me if I am fine..
And I'll tell you the pain is only mine..
I wonder,how it was so easy for you..?
I wonder how you could be so rude..?
I wonder if you even have a heart..?
I wonder how you can live after breaking someone apart..?

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That never ending sorrow,
Crept away in the tight cuddle of yours.
That cringe I got after the heartbreak,
Went away just by a simple mistake.
That uneasiness I was having from ages,
Turned into calmness just by your touches.
Acceptance makes us stronger,and at peace with ourselves,
I am letting you go with the happiness it shelves.
In love's one-way street, my heart scorched,
A silent yearning, my dreams were torched.
No,I will not ask for much
It was more than enough..
It was not ours always forever,
Perhaps in other life we'll make it work together.
My yearning heart hopes the best for you,
With this goodbye, my love, it's hard to construe.
Yours, a one-sided lover,
Heartache I can't smother.

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My soul wept,
My heart wrenched,
I fell and then I stood up.
The scorched I felt under my skin,
I gasped and I cringed.
I tried holding myself,
I stood firmly on my steps.
So many flowers around,
But I picked the thorns from the ground.
But hey,baby girl,
You are a warrior.
Do not struggle,for you the lover.
The one poets talk about,the one poetry is made of.
A long way to go.
You're gonna glow,like the pearls on the sea shore.

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Feeling this breeze..
Is this peace..?
This cold wind,
Is it giving me a hint..?
This moon in the sky,does it still shine?
I've changed and become a different kind..
There's nothing left
As my seeds of hope are dead..
Wait..
Are you better..?
Well,it doesn't matter..
But I still wonder though,
How does it feel to stoop so low..?

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How can you say that it was your true love..?
I waited for hours for him to come online,just to make sure that he is fine,even if he was not mine..

You know he is not yours, still you wait for him to show up..?

Have you ever read the same chats thousands times?
Have you ever waited for somebody to come online..?
Have you ever face that your heart tend to race,by just watching them online..?
Have you ever saw their status like infinity times..?
Have you ever crave somebody so bad,that you start feeling physical pain,that you fight within yourself and still couldn't get..?
And no matter what you try,you're so helpless that you can't even write..

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The day was adorned,
When she was born..
An innocent face with an unknown fate..
Not everyone was happy,because she was ugly..
Unaware of this brutual life,
She was sent on this earth to fight..
With the unconditional love of her mother,
She was raised as a fighter..
Cruelty of life begun,
Criticism started when she was not even one..
Why her feet are like this..?
Why she seems so sick..?
And then started a life which seems so nice..
Beautiful from outside,
Damaged from inside..

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Things started to change,
Memories started to fade..
The amount of ache she received,and started to be a freak..
She did the things she hadn't done ever,
And then she became the most vulnerable...

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Mirror mirror on the wall,
Do you think I can handle it all..?
What if I break and cry out loud..?
Will somebody come and help me out..?
Should I be that strongest girl again..?
So that nobody dares to play with my pain..
Does being weak mean you don't belong to this world.?
Or no matter what "pretend to be the strong" that's what I've learned..

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The new road, the new journey..
Me being paranoid with whatever is happening..

I don't look around on these streets,
Because I know I won't find you here, and
guess what,I am being a freak..
No, no I don't miss you anymore,
I won't search for you here,
But yeah,sometimes I want to have a glimpse of yours..
Am I being mad?
Or is it something everybody does when we get attached?
I don't listen to emotional or romantic songs anymore,
I guess even they know where to hit the most..
I still wear the gifts given by you,with the same love,
But yes,I don't miss you for sure..

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